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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohn's.When my disease was in remission. I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and is able to walk because of them. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Bearing my Soul

The death of Robin Williams has been heavy on my mind.  It broke my heart more than most people realize.  I have struggled with the idea of sharing this or not, but have decided there is no shame.
I have suffered from depression since I was 19 or so.  I was a sensitive child, but never so much as when the doctors at the University Hospital of Madison put me on massive doses of prednisone for Crohn's Disease.  It messes with a person's hormones.  I became somewhat bi-polar, experiencing extreme highs and extreme lows.  That, coupled with being in the hospital for months added to my mental illness.  While young adults were out going to school, partying, or working, I was battling my illness.  People thought I felt sorry for myself.  Perhaps I did.  The doctor suggested that I be admitted to the psyche ward there but I had enough of hospitalization and wanted to be home.
One night when I had an argument with my boyfriend, I decided to take every pill that I possessed.  I shared a room with my sister, and fortunately she heard me slur, "I don't want to die."  She woke up my parents who called 911.
I almost died.  The doctor had to put the defibrillator on me to start my heart. This was the first time I overdosed. Shortly before my mom passed away, she shared with me how, when the nurse said I was going to live, it was the happiest news she heard.  I wish she would have told me that sooner.   I tried it a few more times when depression closed in. 
When a person is depressed, it is like being in a burning building with the flames at your heels.  Should you continue to burn or jump?  Other people are not considered and there are no words or reasoning.  You just want to stop hurting.  It is nobody's fault; it is a mental imbalance akin to that of addiction.  The same part of the brain is affected.
Suicide became my answer to depression.  It wasn't till after my faith had been renewed, that I was able to renounce those feelings in the name of Jesus.  The Lord took the desire to die away from me. 
I still have bouts of depression.  The difference is that now I seek therapy and am on medication for it.  It is a chemical imbalance, and although I am so heartbroken that Robin Williams took his life, I hope that people recognize it as a disease.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Good Weekend Outdoors

I love my great niece, Mackenzie.  Well I love all my nieces and nephews, but Mackenzie is the first little girl since her Momma was born!  So, when I see her, I love her little girlishness.

Her party was on Friday at Bay Beach in Green Bay, WI.  It was so nice to see my nephew with his boys, my bff 's daughter with her children and friends.  It was a beautiful day with just a bit of a breeze so we didn't get too hot or too cold.

I didn't get any pictures of the kids on the rides.  When my sister and I looked for them, they were on the other side of the park, so we never caught up with them.  Gramma (bff) and Auntie Amy got pictures.  There was the giant slide, the bumper cars, Tilt-a-Whirl ...all for a quarter a piece!

There was a yummy sandwich buffet, salads and birthday cupcakes!

Today I went to Algoma's Shanty Days to look at the crafts.  We ate at Cafe T'lazo  and I forgot to take a picture of my food!  There was nothing new and exciting with the crafts this year, nothing that jumped out at me.  There was a lot of jewelry!  It was nice to be outdoors though!

Friday, August 8, 2014

A Week of Woes, but a Great Weekend Ahead!

This has been a week of woes! 
To begin with, I was suffering from emotional issues dealing with my bbf's cancer and how it has brought up all kinds of emotions and memories from my sister's battle with cancer.  I have to remember that there are more advances in treatment now and to go with the flow.
Then, on the recommendation of my dentist, I went to the periodontist.  I have to have extensive work done or I will lose my teeth.  Well, I guess I will do what I have to do and pay the piper (or the periodontist!)  FLOSS, FLOSS, FLOSS!
Started getting back pain on my lower right side and into my hip and down my leg.  One day I could barely move.  I will see the chiropractor for that one!
Today I go to re-establish with a urologist for my Interstitial Cystitis.  It is a condition where the bladder lining has pin point ulcerations, causing urgency and frequent urination, bladder spasms, and pain.  I have been on medication for it for years and that seems to help.  I hope this doctor doesn't change my treatment or want to do a cystoscopy.

On the bright side:

Yesterday I found a girl's 24" bike 3-speed bike with fat tires!  It is just right for my short little legs and body!  It will be good to get a little exercise.
Today  I am going to my great niece's 6th birthday party!

She's a beautiful child, but really active!
This weekend is Shanty Days in Algoma which isn't that big of a drive from here.  Love to browse at the crafts, and just be outdoors!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Lakeshore Weekend for Kids (and Adults)

Yesterday my sister and I went to the lakeshore (Lake Michigan) for a big fundraiser for Children's Hospital of Wisconsin.  First we watched some of the dragon boat races.


We saw the kid's tent with all kinds of activities including face painting.  (I should have taken my Godson).  There was one of those bouncy houses, the water tank and something we had never seen before but looked like a blast!
The kids were inside the bubbles and got to bounce around in the water!
We went to the silent auction but didn't bid on anything as it was all beyond our means.  I did however buy some raffle tickets to win a new bike.  (I consider it a donation to the Children's Miracle Network.)
Here is the car ferry which goes across Lake Michigan to Ludington, Michigan.  I have not been on it since I was a baby.  Some day!
We finished the day by window shopping at all the little specialty shops downtown and decided that the next time we need jewelry or some accessories, we will go downtown and buy something handmade and unique!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

What's Been Going on in My Life

Vacation was fun, although it probably isn't most people's cup of tea.  We were up north and did some gambling at the Indian casinos on the reservations.  My husband and I did rather well and it paid for the hotel room.  I enjoy dining out.  Most meals were nothing to brag about but I had a wonderful meal on the way up.  It was a spicy  pasta with shrimp and oriental vegetables.  YUM!
We also played bingo at the Community hall.  The raffles and bingo raises money for the community and is rather affordable.  It was fun, but we were losers.  That night we spent some time in the hot tub and that always feels good.
We stopped at the liquidators on the way home so I could pick up some "necessary" scrapbooking supplies.
I had the onset of a bladder infection during vacation, but didn't know it  as I didn't have the usual symptoms.  Just the urgency and inability to void.
I was home about a day or two and ended up in ER.  The pain was excruciating and I was experiencing abdominal pain and nausea.  My doctor told me to go to ER where it was diagnosed as a very bad UTI.  I went back on antibiotics and on the advice of my bff,  am also taking probiotics.  The probiotics are certainly helping my GI tract.
So, there you have it.  I have nothing really exciting to report.  I'm just trying to stay healthy.
I scanned this picture of my great grandparents on my mother's side.  I am not sure when this was taken.  They look quite old, and Mom was 94, so it has to be the 30's or 40's.  I wish there was a date on it.  Great Grandfather started the cheese making business in the area.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Heaven is for Real! - a movie review

Shortly after my mom's death, I read the book, Heaven is for Real.  I found it comforting.  The story as told by the little boy's perspective to his father had scriptural references that no four year old boy would be aware of.  Whether you believe in Heaven or not, you cannot dispute the sincerity of little Colton Burpo.
Last night I went to see the movie.  The acting was good.  I was amazed at the little actor who played Colton.  It was entertaining.  It was a movie.  It had no scriptural reference, not even when the father, Todd, was preaching in his church!  I am surprised the name of Jesus was even mentioned.  I hope if you see this movie, you have or will read the book.  Like I said, no matter what your belief, it is an interesting read.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

I Changed my Mind - This and That

Did you ever do something nasty and you don't know why?  (It is the sinner in me, I guess).
I learned a lesson or two. 
1.  Don't make any commitments you are not sure of.
2.  Don't ditch your girlfriend for a boy (even if the boy is 62!).
I am fortunate my girlfriend forgave me and we worked things out.  Can't throw a friendship of
24 years away over one incident, no matter how hurtful.
We spent a Saturday going to Appleton, WI to meet up with a friend of hers from Ohio.  I had met her before so I knew her too.  Good lunch, good time.  We then stopped at a few thrift stores and I scored an almost new bra (bought it without trying it on and it fit), shoes, two tops and a Precious Moments cross for my great-great nephew! 
Linda, Deena (Colleen's daughter), myself and Colleen.
I had the stomach flu a couple of weeks ago.  It really hung on.  Since then, I have a very tender tummy on some days and I feel queasy.  My friend turned me on to Gin-gin (not the kind you drink).
It is a candy made with ginger and helps the queasiness.  It works!  It was also suggested I try probiotics.
I thought with all my myriad of illnesses I should try an Internal Medicine doctor.  He was okay, but I just didn't feel any rapport.  He asked me why I have kidney disease....like I know?  I think I will go back to my other doctor.
My husband, son and I are were all set for vacation next week.  One problem.  My hubby had the wrong week!  Now son will change his vacation days and I will change the reservations.