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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohn's.When my disease was in remission. I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and is able to walk because of them. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

34 Years, but Who's Counting?

Yesterday marked our 34th wedding anniversary.
Way before Hallmark, the florists, and jewelers decided to make October 18th Sweetest Day, we had chose it for our wedding day.  We wanted the fall with it's colors, and the church and dance hall had all lined up for that date!  It was a warm October day and I could just wear a sweater over my shoulders when outdoors.  The fall colors were at their peak that year!  I thought our service was beautiful.  (I will never understand why our pastor referred to "Who's Afraid of Virginia Wolf?" in his sermon!)
We did our wedding on the cheap.  I had invitations printed at a Quick Print in black and white.  (Good thing as our church was being remodeled and I had to get them all reprinted!)  My dress came off of the rack.  Our flowers were Mum plants (except for the bouquet and wedding party's flowers).  
The hall was just a typical dance hall in Wisconsin with broasted chicken and tips.  We had a polka band that wasn't very good and no one danced.  The band didn't play any of our requests and there was no wedding march.  We also forgot to cut the cake!  I felt bad that our reception was oh so boring and goofed up.  Jim was missing most of the night as he was busy entertaining his family!  I ended up at the bar with my brother in law sulking.  All of a sudden, Jim appears and says "let's go home!"  I told him how disappointed I was with our reception, and he said it didn't matter..."we're married! That's what's important!"
Last night we went out to dinner somewhere where we hadn't been before.  It was okay...nothing fantastic, but that wasn't the point.
I was kind of sad that we had passed the cemetery where mom is resting, but Jim didn't want me to get all upset.  Still, I felt so melancholy driving through the areas where mom grew up and was married, remembering her stories!  Jim said it will take time to
come to terms with our loss, but she would have been happy for us and loved us both. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

Mid Week Get Togethers and Get Away!

Last weekend was quiet.  We were waiting for midweek when all the action would start!  Jim has vacation this week.  His sister was up from Georgia and visiting another sister in southern Wisconsin.  We all were invited for a visit and dinner.  It was good to see everyone again. They are spread all over the place so we don't see each other often.   This is Jim with his sisters:
He is the baby!
Wednesday Jim and I went away for a one night get away near Wittenberg, WI.  It was rainy so I couldn't get any pictures of the fall colors.  They are fading fast!
We stopped at Nueske's Meat Market.  A "must" if you you are in the area!  It is all done in antiques and quite scenic.

Last night I didn't sleep well.  My interstitial cystitis started to flare up.  I was afraid I would end up in emergency.  I took a pain killer and an muscle relaxer to stop the bladder spasms.  I also increased my meds back to the original dose.  I am okay now but quite tired today.
This Saturday is our 34th wedding anniversary.  I wonder if Jim and I will go out to dinner?

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Midweek Catch Up!

The other day, I felt like I was in such a good place.  I felt so at peace!
Something flipped my switch.  I think it was some comments that were made and the the tone of voice that hurt my feelings. 
It was supposed to be a fun time, but at our Red Hat meeting, I felt a panic attack coming on.  Tears welled up but did not roll down my cheeks.  I just cannot handle large groups and all the noise!  Our Red Hat group started with five people; now we have 17!  I love each of the women individually, but put them all in a group, and it is difficult for me.   I used to be Queen, but resigned as I just felt like it was time and it was adding to my stress.  Well, I am not crazy about how things are being run, but I have no one to blame but myself.
I planned a day trip to an orchard and restaurant.  Only six Red Hatters are going, so I will be sure the rest of them know what a great time they missed!  Isn't that just evil?

Maybe it is just me, but I think I'm getting old...am I?  I went to the Beauty School to get my hair colored (I am thrifty that way).  So many of the girls  are wear leggings and yoga pants.  Women, young and old:  Please wear a tunic length top with these!  Not everyone has the figure, and even if they do, I don't want to see a detailed look at your tush!
My hair didn't turn out like I wanted this time.  There was a different instructor, no notes on my card and they did a different process.  It didn't work, so they had to shampoo and dry my hair again and do the highlights again!  I was there four hours! 
I guess I get what I pay for, but they noted it on my card, and next time, I'll pack a lunch!

Monday, October 6, 2014

A Much Better Week

This has been a much better week, nothing exciting, but better.  I am not sure what was different about it, but it was.
Last Thursday I volunteered at the Senior Center.  I have the first Thursday morning of every month.  I wasn't completely with it as I was really tired that morning, but at least I know they won't fire me!
Thursday evening I had a fish dinner compliments of my bff who always seems to be winning radio prizes!  It was very good and the price was right!  Friday night my husband, son, sister and I  went out for a fish fry to The Redwood Inn. (I really like fish!)  It is a very popular place and full of much Packer memorabilia.   Their perch is delicious and one gets a ton of food (next day's lunch).   Again, I forgot to take a picture as I had to dig right in!
Saturday I had so much ambition!  I was doing my usual laundry, when I started to clean the basement.  You can now see my craft table!  I also baked a cherry pie.  It boiled all over the oven, and no, I don't have a self cleaning stove!  My hubby cleaned the awful mess for me.
Yesterday was just a day of rest for me.  I nice little visit with my bff, and caught up on some sleep!
This week will be very busy, so I better remember to take pictures!

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

A Typical Week in my Life?

This last week has been a week of contemplation, ups, and downs.
Last Sunday, in church, all I could do is think of my mom and how I missed her.  We used to celebrate her birthday on the 21st, until she got her Social Security.  She had to get her birth certificate and discovered she was actually born on the 22nd!  Her parents had always told her the 21st!  Mom would have been 95.  The morning in church was spent crying.  I just could not stop.
In the afternoon we went to my great, great nephew's 1st birthday party.

Do you think he liked his cake?  No tears here!  Was so nice to be surrounded by family and little ones.
I bought a hot pink suitcase off of a buy and sell group.  Now I will see my suitcase coming down the turn style right away at the airport!
I also found a top at the thrift store and a necklace to go with it.  The necklace cost more than the top.  When I have the sleeves hemmed, I will model it for you!
It was doctor week.  I saw the kidney doctor and my kidney disease is stable.  I saw the podiatrist for my nail fungus...waiting for my toenail to grow!  I also saw the periodontist.  My insurance covered some of my last bill, so I didn't have to pay this time!
Saturday evening my husband took us out to dinner.  We asked my sister to join us.  Jim raved about the Texas Roadhouse and how good the steaks were.  Ours were great, and wouldn't you know it, after all the hype, my sister's steak was really tough and full of cords.  She got a new steak and a good discount off of her meal.  She said she won't go back though.  It is really noisy there!
I have been reading Heaven and the Afterlife by James Garlow and Keith Wall.  It just made me think of my mom all over again and I started grieving and crying.  After much talk with my sister, my bff, and God, (I should have talked to Him first), I think I have finally come to grips that Mom is in a mansion, with no more sorrow and no more pain, surrounded by her loved ones and all the companies of Heaven!

Monday, September 22, 2014

Ethnic Fest: Cloudy but the Rain Held Off for a Bit

Saturday my bff and I went to Ethnic Fest.  It is probably the biggest festival in this little city that draws people from all over the state!
First of all there is the food court (you know where my priorities lie).  In the past there was more variety.  This year it was mostly Asian, one Mexican, one Italian, pulled pork and American.  I missed the fried smelt, the gyros, chili, walking tacos, and the Australian food truck this year.  Oh well!  Maybe they will be back next year?  The German fare was down the road at the beer garden.
The entertainment was great! 
Native American




I loved all the costumes!
Czech Band

My Godson making a memory!  I always wanted to do this, but told him if he would do it, I would buy the tickets!

There was many crafts but not the variety of the past.  Some jewelry, very much Asian, some Peruvian, some silk flowers, wall and holiday d├ęcor.  I bought a winter headband and a little monkey for my great, great nephew's birthday!

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Today I Wanted to be with Jesus.

This morning I had a meltdown at church.  I went to the rest room, collected myself, and then went back in and cried some more.  Maybe it was all the singing about taking my last breath and being with the Lord and all, but it made me think of my mom.
Tomorrow would have been her 95th birthday.  For years she celebrated it on the 21st since she was told that was the date when she was born.  However, when she needed to apply for Social Security, she had to get her birth certificate and have it translated to English.  She was born on the 22nd!  Seems for 60 some years she had the wrong date!  Back in 1919, mom was born at home and was delivered slightly after midnight.
It is a cute story.
After church, the pastor's wife (and my friend) came up to me to see what was wrong.
We talked.  I told her besides grieving, I often wished that I had a disease that I could just get some treatment for or have an operation and be done with it.  But noooooooooo!
This is how I am and will most likely always be.  It is not enough that I have had to battle Crohn's Disease, have had intensive surgery, have stage IV  Kidney Disease.  I suffer with depression and that gets pretty darn sickening!  I am sick of going back and forth with medication.  I just want to be normal.
It seems we all have something and must suffer as long as we live in this world.
Today I wanted to be with Jesus.