I'm having the blues. Last nite I had very vivid dreams caused by my antidepressants. Well, I hate the bad dreams,...I wake up crying sometimes, and just feeling blue. On the other hand, the meds are working so well during the day and helping me cope with all of life's crap. I found out that my probable kidney donor ( she had surpassed so many tests) cannot be a donor because she has developed health issues. So, not only do I go back to square one hoping for a donor, I am worried about her health!
Christmas was wonderful. All of us were in one big community room at my Mom's apartment. How nice to be all together instead of some in the family room, some in the living room, etc. I got a picture of each family and made a digital scrapbook which I will try and post when I get it figured out.
- I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.