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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Maybe it's the weather

Yesterday my dh was CRABBY, and I mean crabby.  It wore off on me.  I felt down in the dumps.  I take other peoples feelings and soak them up like a sponge.  It was a lonely night, even though Jim was lying next to me.

I couldn't sleep.  I dozed off around 1 am, then woke up at 2, 3, 4, 5 and then 6 am.  I give up.  Don't know what it is.  It is cold and rainy.  Maybe it's the barometric pressure.  I will probably go back to bed this morning.

I shouldn't be in such a crummy mood.

No sunshine award for me today!


Linda said...

You have to try really hard not to let other people get control over you, it's YOUR life, don't let 'them' ruin it for you. IF you did something to contribute to his crabbiness apologize and get on with it. Your hubby does a lot for you.....maybe all of this caretaking is wearing him down too. He does love you and you are very lucky to have him, give him a break, let him have his crabby mood and try (REALLY hard) not to let it get to you! I finally learned to to let others ruin my day.........mine was crabby last night too-no patience with J. For gosh sakes, he is a kid, a very good kid...who sometimes spills his milk, wants a toy NOW, and likes to look at toys. If you give him a chance to THINK about it and make a decision he will do a good job. Ok, I didn't blog today.......but I suppose you will count this LONG comment toward blogging. *wink*
By now I am sure you and Jim have made up and life will be better!!!!! your bff (still, I hope)

Linda said...

oops..........I meant I learned NOT to let others ruin my day.