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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

What is wrong with me?

I have been so anxious and weepy of late.  I think I hurt my best friend's feelings, but I didn't mean to.  I don't think it was the girls this week on vacation in the condo, or my cousin's broken leg, I just think I let things pile up internally and then I errupt.  I don't get angry but sad for seemingly no good reason.  I am hurting again for everyone around me: my sister, my friend, my cousin.  I am hurting cause I am afraid of work and the stress of the week.  I am afraid of the future and my husband's job security.  Feel like a basket case.


Linda said...

You only scratched my feelings, not hurt them. Don't worry about it. After I express my opinion I often feel that I should just not say anything....often I put my foot in my mouth or people don't understand my sense of humor. I think you are upset for C and S. You can't do anything about either situation. Pray for both.

bad penny said...

Oh Bless you. I was horrible to a friend recently but she is very forgiving. It happens as do the lows & weeps - I did it all summer !
Post holiday blues can knock you for six sometimes - don't be too hard on yourself xx