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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Disappointed but I will Survive

In 1995 I dodged a bullet.  I had my colon removed and with it, precancerous cells.  Hubby and I decided that life is too short and to celebrate our wedding anniversaries with a trip.  We went to St Thomas, then years later to the Riviera Maya in Mexico.  This year we were to go on a cruise but we couldn't afford that.  So, plan B, Las Vegas was offered as a consolation.  Last night that offer was rescinded.  We can't afford that either.  I am disappointed.  Hubby is going on a golfing trip with buddies to Arizona.  That will go on the charge card.  I am going to Florida to see my cousin but that is paid for and I have cash.  Together though, we can't afford squat....go figure.

We aren't poor.  We have a nice house, two cars, pay our bills, not on public assistance, pay for our health care....  We do have the same carpet that came with this house from 1969 (it's rust colored but still in decent shape), our furniture is older than our 25 year old son, but we have lived well.  We have gone to casinos and out to eat.  My husband spoiled me at Christmas.  I have tons of clothes and shoes and purses.

Still, I am disappointed.  I have to come up with Plan C, that's all.


Linda said...

Yes, you do have a good life. You do get to go & do many things that you enjoy, you have a son and husband that adore you, and you have lots of things. It is good that you do not over extend yourselves (see my many 'soapbox' talks - LOL). sometimes a person just has to enjoy life...and not things. You will come up with a plan C.

Pixie said...

Let's see...Plan C.....so many options, even on a restricted budget! what about thinking outside the box and maybe just having a fun weekend away, but still close to home?

Life is short and you have indeed been blessed. Do what you are able to do and don't beat yourself up about it.

Tracey said...

I often have to go with plan Z, but we also live well so really except for all the ill health I shouldn't complain! xxx

Pretty Things said...

I'm sorry you don't get a vacation away together, but some of my best times with my husband are when we take day trips. Not sure where you live in relation to places you may not have explored, or places that you HAVE explored but liked enough to go back to, but even a dinner out (where dessert is the first course!) might sound appealing (sounds appealing to me right now).

Stay cancer free!!!!!