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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Self Image

I should be saving my money for my trip in the Fall to Washington D.C., but  I am having self image issues.  All of a sudden, I have noticed how wrinkly my eyes are getting... like I got the wrinkles overnight!  I want something for the wrinkles, but everything that works is $50 or so.  We spent our time at the cosmetics counter.  I was overwhelmed by the stuff I could get to make me look younger.  Now, I have been using Avon, but eye cremes bother my eyes, so I was looking at a serum instead.

We then went and looked at clothes.  How depressing.  I think I will stick with Christopher and Banks.  It fits me.  I tried on some tops....I am now an X-large!  I hate my boobs!  They make me look so matronly.  I have gained so much weight.  I can't seem to stop the pounds from packing on, and I don't like the way I look in anything anymore.  I did buy some skinny jeans...mostly because they have an elastic waist and no pockets, so will look smooth under tops.  Most of the tops are so long anyway, or I am just that short.  I bought a short sleeved sweater to wear over a dress.  Problem is, the dresses I have are now too small, and rolls are showing.  Think I will wear a skirt with a jacket for Easter.

Thanks for letting me rant.


Linda said...

Sometimes we just gotta rant!

A Gracious Home said...

I enjoyed your rant. I have some of the same issues. Yesterday I noticed more winkles and drooping on my body. I'm small in the wrong places. I don't know what happened to my waist. I have a large waist and small hips. When I was young it was just the opposite. I think it's ok once in a while to mourn the loss of our youthful looks. I have found the best creams are on HSN. The prices are better than Walmart. I use Dr Graf's products. I like the retinol line the best. They sell out fast though. I enjoyed reading your blog.