I cannot help worry about my Mom. I am not ready to lose her. Just a couple of weeks ago she was here for dinner. Now she is lying in a hospital bed with septicemia and pneumonia. So frail. The doctor has put her on stronger antibiotics and they are giving her some protein supplement shakes too.
She was doing better in the morning and noon, but by evening she starts feeling awful again and gets nauseaus and feverish.
My brother and sister and I met to discuss what to do with Mom. We agreed she can no longer live alone without someone coming in to look after her besides us. First my brother said my sister and I could take turns cleaning Mom's place, but I said, we have our lives too. Is that selfish? I don't know. I don't even like cleaning up my own messes let alone someone elses. We decided that if she is on her own again she will have someone come in to clean...tough love. Another option is assisted living. Anyway, when she is discharged, she will end up going to a nursing home for rehab or stay with my brother and have home health care come in.
Nothing prepares you for their imminent death. They are your Mom. Mom's are supposed to take care of you and not get old and have to be taken care of. I love my Mom.