For today, I will think of the positive.
My mom looked fabulous last night. She had her hair done and wanted to go for a spin today in her wheelchair. The oxygen is attached so she has freedom from her four walls.
I will be job shadowing on Friday. How can that not be a good thing?
It is the weekend and the sun is shining. I will go to my mom's apartment and take the things she wanted me to have. I will pack some things up, and give some other things away.
I am going to go for counseling to get me past this phase in my life. I am thankful for friends who pull me out of the darkness.
- I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.