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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Take her Home

Nothing can prepare me for the pain of losing my mother.
I watch her sleep.  I don't want to let go, but I don't want her to suffer any longer.
God, just keep her comfortable.  Take her home.

Reality has set in and I don't like it.  I want my mamma.
I want to go back in time and relive some years with her. They were such a gift.
She was such a gift!

My tears fall down. I am not ready to let go.  I will never be ready.
My heart is breaking.

3 comments:

Linda said...

in turn my heart hurts for you too. She will always be your mamma, you will always have the memories and you will be together again FOREVER!
((HUGE HUG))

Pam @ over50feeling40 said...

I will pray for you...there is nothing in the world that makes this easier. May God's Holy Spirit, the Comforter, bring you peace and hope at this time. Ponder the memories in your heart..as Mary, the mother of Christ, pondered hers.

Debbi@SheAccessorizesWell said...

I wish I had just the right words to comfort you, all I can say is I will pray for the comfort for you and your mother. Thinking of you,