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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Vigil: Day 3

Mom was doing allot better today since they took away the antibiotics.  Her color was better, she was more talkative, watched TV, and ate a little more.  She even took a phone call from her granddaughter.

Still, she is on hospice.  She doesn't want antibiotics for the pneumonia.  She doesn't want life saving measures.  Is this the calm before the storm?  I don't know.  Could the outcome be reversed?

I still cry.  It wasn't as bad today, but it is still hard.  Work has been very understanding which helps if I don't have to worry about my job.

It is the middle of the night, and I need to talk to you dear friends.  I have to unburden my soul.  How do I do that?  I have prayed and prayed.  This is worse than any operation or anything I have gone through before.

2 comments:

Pixie said...

I am so sorry you are having to go thru this. It is a very hard journey. Know that I am thinking of you, even tho I am far away.

Gill - That British Woman said...

oh dear me, I don't have any advise. Sending you prayers and hugs,

Gill in Canada