It is not quite 3am. I can't sleep, so here I am.
I can't seem to post on other's blogs, less I say something depressing. I am depressed. Mom moved to the nursing home yesterday. It is not a good transistion. She doesn't get half the care she got in the hospital. The food is lukewarm at best and not all edible. She is feeling down, I can tell, and that is what bothers me. It is difficult for me to leave her there.
Her hearing aide is in for repairs, so she has her TV on full blast, which makes it difficult to visit. I think she is escaping into her TV.
My sister is always cross, and I can't take that anymore either. Today we have to go to the funeral home to pay for Mom's arrangements. I want to go a month back into time.
- I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.