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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Love and Forgiveness

Today I went to church and it was one of those enlightening mornings.  We all have heard that we are to forgive others as God forgives us.  That is really hard to put into practice.  How many of us have a grudge?  Maybe we don't think we have anything against anyone, but think again.  I know I have a person in my life that is not "my favorite."  I have been very critical of this person as she doesn't live up to my perfect standards.  But then, I don't live up to God's perfect standards either, so who do I think I am?  I have to give up my self righteousness and pray to love this person no matter what.  What kind of Christian am I, what type of example am I setting, if I am not anything but kind and nonjudgemental.  My love should not depend on whether or not it's deserved or appreciated, but just because God has commanded us to love one another.

Thank you for letting me share.

Date Night

My husband has gotten behind in his bills since his commission has gone down.  It is difficult to explain, but I'll try.  Before there were 13 routes and now there are 14.  He gets route average as he is a
an SSR (a sales rep that fills in for everyone else).  Route average went down, and so did his pay with the addition of another route....a smaller piece of the pie.

Last night we discussed our financial circumstances and it was agreed upon that I would contribute more to the household expenses.  Before my income was for myself and decorating the house.  Now is is for things like heat and food!  We also decided that we should keep date night but keep it simple.  Maybe go to a fast food place or have friends over.

I had extra money so we went to Applebees.  Their sirloin is good...yum!  Went and visited my sister after and called it a date.  I met my nephew's girlfriend who is a very nice lady.

Next week, we are skipping date night as I am going to a scrapbooking store with my bff for a card class.  We usually go out to eat then.  Sunday is the big football game and that will be our date!

I am confident that things will work out and I will just watch my pennies.  (I'm still getting my nails done before I go to Florida).

Friday, January 28, 2011

Moody

I have mood swings and this is where I express them.  I don't have a headache for a change so I should be happy.  My plan for today is to take my son to work, go and work out and tan, go to the bank.  This afternoon I plan on getting my nails done and a haircut that is desperately needed.  So why am I in such a slump? 

I don't feel like I have anything interesting to say and can't even comment on other's blogs.  Just in a wierd mood.

I got my sandals from Ebay.  They are a tad small, but will work.  They are really pretty and in excellent condition.  Shopping makes me happy.

I am working on plan C for vacation.  We are going to drive to St Louis.  There is the St Louis Arch, the brewery, the zoo, museums and (shhhh!) casinos!  That makes me excited and smile.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Disappointed but I will Survive

In 1995 I dodged a bullet.  I had my colon removed and with it, precancerous cells.  Hubby and I decided that life is too short and to celebrate our wedding anniversaries with a trip.  We went to St Thomas, then years later to the Riviera Maya in Mexico.  This year we were to go on a cruise but we couldn't afford that.  So, plan B, Las Vegas was offered as a consolation.  Last night that offer was rescinded.  We can't afford that either.  I am disappointed.  Hubby is going on a golfing trip with buddies to Arizona.  That will go on the charge card.  I am going to Florida to see my cousin but that is paid for and I have cash.  Together though, we can't afford squat....go figure.

We aren't poor.  We have a nice house, two cars, pay our bills, not on public assistance, pay for our health care....  We do have the same carpet that came with this house from 1969 (it's rust colored but still in decent shape), our furniture is older than our 25 year old son, but we have lived well.  We have gone to casinos and out to eat.  My husband spoiled me at Christmas.  I have tons of clothes and shoes and purses.

Still, I am disappointed.  I have to come up with Plan C, that's all.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

The Law of Chocolate

  1.   One must continue to eat a box of chocolates until they find their favorite one!

Awesome giveaway!

Awesome giveaway!  Metal stamp set from http://lorianderson.blogspot.com/ who got it from PJ Tool supply.  A $70 value! 

Friday, January 21, 2011

Sometimes It's Worth It

My sister and I went to a country concert last night.  I wasn't sure about going, as I've been kind of out of the country loop lately and it cost money to go to a concert.  Connie really wanted to go, so as the tickets were getting in short supply, I made my purchase.

Had to be the coldest night of the year!  We couldn't find a place to park.  Finally the parking attendant directed us to handicap parking but it cost another $10.  Oh well.  (my sister has handicap privileges cause of her back).  The first act was starting as we got in the building.  He was good.  Wish I remembered the name.  Next, Darius Rucker.  He used to sing with Hootie an The Blowfish and has gone kind of pop/country. Awesome!

The main act was Brad Paisley!  Green Bay was the first stop of his H20 tour.  Awesome x 3!  Great singer, great looking, laser light shows, video, etc.  What an act!



and he can sing too!
The show got even better!  The star quarterback for the Green Bay Packers, Aaron Rodgers,  came out with Brad!  Woo hoo!  The crowd went wild.  It was louder than it was for any of the performers!  You have to understand, that the Green Bay Packers are in the play offs and against their arch nemesis, the Chicago Bears this Sunday.  Green Bay LOVES it's football team!  Brad could hardly finish his song, so he let Aaron sing the last few words.

He better keep his day job!
The rib has really been hurting.  I've been getting God awful headaches too.  Glad I managed to feel good enough through the night.  The concert was soooooooo worth the memories!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Exasperated, Tired and Bored

 I wrote for blog today.  I accidentally clicked on the window, and poof!  It's gone!  Dork Award!

Got ready for work, but something seemed amiss.  I checked my work email.  I don't work today!  Dork Award!

I joined a gym.  On my third visit I was on the stretching machine and cracked a rib.  Dork Award!  It hurts too much to clean of course.

Went to a 50th birthday party the other night and watched Packer football.  The Packers won!  We were going to go to the casino but I was the designated driver.  I don't like driving at night, so no casino.  I did buy a pair of sandals on Ebay.  They are normally over $100, but I got them for $26 with the shipping.

I really should clean.  The dust in the Boop Room (home to my computer) is calling me.  At least I could write my name in it.  The trouble with collectables is you have to dust them!  Ughhh!  Maybe I can tune it out?


These are old pics.  Don't have that desk, don't have that TV, monitor or printer, but do have LOTS of Boops!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Dizzy, My Head is Spinning!

The last two weeks I was scheduled to work 4 days a week.  I found out today that I am not up to that.  I got severe dizzy spells, chest tightness and short of breath.  When one works in a clinic and mentions a twinge of tightness in the chest, one ends up with a ton of blood work, an electrocardiogram, and chest xray.  All in all, my blood count was a bit low, my ECG was normal for me, xray normal.  I was told that I was exhausted and or it could be another prelude to a migraine and go home.  I felt so foolish.  I am that magic age when things go awry, and given my history, it would be no surprise.  Heart attacks have different signals in women than in men and I guess it's okay to be cautious.  Maybe I am just coming down with a cold.  Hmmmm.

Monday, January 10, 2011

OMG! It's Suzy Homemaker!

I don't know what has gotten into me.  Yesterday I cleaned!  Then I made sloppy Joes.  This is extreme for me as I am extremely lazy and hate cooking of any shape or form.  Just had some ambition for a change.  The rest of the day was spent being lazy, watching football and going to bed early and watching TV in bed.  Love my heated up mattress cover!

















Sunday, January 9, 2011

Revelations and Pea Soup

I have discussed the switchboard job with my sister and mom, and although I need the money, I will have to forgo this one.  I don't think I could work alone in a little room without going buggy.  Secondly, with my kidney disease and ileostomy, I could have a leak or sudden need to go to the bathroom and that would be difficult.  So, my revelation is this:  God will provide the opportunity if need be and in the mean time I will be content in my circumstances.

This brings me to my nails.  I thought I should get my gel nails removed but my sister persuaded me to get them filled and keep them.  Can't afford squat but I'll have pretty nails and purses and it should make me feel better about myself and life in general.

Which brings me to the toilet.  Thank God we finally got it plunged!  Just an unexpected incident where you appreciate the things we take for granted....like plumbing!

My husband went to the store with me when we got the ham bone cut. He was with me when I bought the peas....well, guess what! He doesn't LIKE pea soup. I simmered, I boiled, I peeled potatoes and carrots, I made dumplings.... My son doesn't like pea soup either but he ate the dumplings in chicken broth, and hubby endured a very small bowl of pea soup. Anyone for home made pea soup?






Saturday, January 8, 2011

Trying to Stay Positive

Oh, it is so hard!  Yesterday my supervisor was trying to disuade me from applying for the switchboard job...."it's too stressful for you, it's too many hours, etc."  Basically, my breakdown two years ago is being held against me, but try to prove it.

Then, I get home and have a message from the department store.  They can't afford any extra help at this time.

Worse yet...my husband got cheated on his paycheck out of a day's wages!  It will probably take at least a week before he sees the money.

Disheartening. 

I am going to try and make home made pea soup and dumplings today for the first time ever!  Wish me luck on that.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

I Coulda Been a Contender!

Maybe this sounds vain, but I was going to enter a modeling contest for "real" women.  Hey, I'm real!
I thought I looked pretty good before church Sunday, so had Jim take my pic in my new Christopher Banks  jacket.  I hate that I'm so busty and actually think I looked better in person.  Jim is no photographer!  Blame the camera! Blame the photographer!  Anyway, the contest was closed before I got a chance to submit my photo and story.

This week I worked a few days in Peds which is fun.  Will have a nice paycheck when you add that to my regular hours.  Unfortunately I spent it already.  I have a bit of a gambling problem, which applies to Ebay as well.  I bid on a Miche bag with two shells and won them!  Yikes!  I didn't think I would win and now I have to pay.


The shells go on with magnets.  Can a girl have too many purses?  I got two new ones for Christmas.  I was instructed to model one at work this week and will take pics then.  Well, I have to deposit some money so I can pay for my purchase.  Let's just call this last one my Christmas present to me.  Or was that the massage package?  Aunt Vi gave me $1000 and it's going like crazy!  Maybe I'm just crazy.













Sunday, January 2, 2011

Celebrating New Year's

This is how this 58 year old broad celebrated the holiday.  Friday night I was falling asleep on the couch, so I thought I may as well watch TV in bed and at least I'll be in the right place to sleep.  I was out by 7-7:30 pm.  This created a problem as I woke up at 3am wide eyed and bushy tailed.  (what exactly is that?)

What does one do at 3 am?  I visited blog land, played computer games, checked my emails, played more games, visited blog land again....and ate lots of cookies!

On New Year's Day my hubby took me to Red Lobster for lunch.  Yummy!  We had an enjoyable lunch, however, I do wish they had a "no children" section, much like they used to have a "no smoking" section.

We then went to the casino.  Lucky hubby won within the first ten minutes.  I lost my butt again!  One would think I would learn....hah!  He ended up spending his winnings.  I ended up deeper in debt to him
and my own pocketbook.  We did have some fun though...expensive fun.  Came home in time to watch the college football game.  Wisconsin made it to the Rose Bowl but didn't win.

Watched the Green Mile (again) in bed.  Cried my eyes out when John Coffee was executed.  Sometimes I feel like him.  "Take some of this pain from me, I am tired of people being ugly to one another.".....or something like that.

Today  I woke up at 5 am....a little more acceptable.  I will go to church and probably do laundry again!

If I had a word, or a theme, it would be this:  "Savor"  Savor the moment, the friendships, your family, etc.  Screw everything else...life is too short.