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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Monday, May 30, 2011

Laugh a Little


There's always a lot to be thankful for if you take time to look for it. For example

I am sitting here right now thinking how nice it is that wrinkles & fat don't hurt.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

What do Your Hands Say?

Yesterday my son said I have old hands.  I said all 59 years are in my hands.  My face stays younger cause we pay more attention to our skin there with creams and all, but hands show our true age.

My deformed thumb nails show that I damaged the matrix of my nail.  I was a nervous little girl and remember being scolded for chewing on my cuticles, causing hangnails that would become infected.

My skin is crepey, very thin.  I was on prednisone for over eight years which cause the tissues to become fragile.  The elasticity is poor.  They are the way they are.  I cannot afford botox. 

I have age spots.  Never thought it would happen to me, but that's what happens from years in the sun.  How many of us put sunscreen on our hands?

My right hand is larger than my left hand; I'm a right handed person.

My nails are clean and manicured.  I have a clerical job and don't like to get my hands dirty.

What do your hands say?  What is your story?

Thursday, May 26, 2011

This and That cause Bronchitis is Boring

Okay.  It is May 26th.  Memorial Day weekend is coming up.  So why on Earth is it only 46°F?  I really want to put away all my Fall/Winter stuff.  Get out the capris, the sandals, the patio furniture!  Arghhhh!  The good news is, it is supposed to get to 60° by Sunday.

My cough is slowly loosening up.  My laryngitis is getting better.  My voice is still crackly.  Wonder if I'll be able to talk by the afternoon?  Hard to answer phones this way.  I need to get back to work!  I'm using up all my vacation time/pay.  Yuck.

I think I will work on my closet today.  That's my goal.  What's yours?

My brother in law died.  He was such a sweet, funny guy.  He had cancer and I guess it spread all over.  At least he didn't suffer and was in good spirits up to the end.   Jim and I had a nice chat with his sister.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Husband Down

A husband and wife are shopping in their local Wal-Mart.

The husband picks up a case of Budweiser and puts it in their cart.

“What do you think you're doing?” asks the wife.

“They're on sale, only $10 for 24 cans” he replies.

“Put them back, we can't afford them” demands the wife, and so they carry on shopping.

A few aisles further on along the woman picks up a $20 jar of face cream and put it in the basket.

“What do you think you're doing?” asks the husband.

“It’s my face cream. It makes me look beautiful,” replies the wife.

Her husband retorts: “So does the 24 cans of Budweiser and it's half the price.”

He never knew what hit him.

HUSBAND DOWN on aisle 8


Went to see a Nurse Practitioner yesterday.  I was sure I had walking pneumonia.
Well, I didn't have a fever or any rattling in my lungs. 
What I have is brochitis and laryngitis.
I left with cough medicine with codeine, an inhaler and and an antibiotic. 
I won't be working today.


Sunday, May 22, 2011

It's just a Cold

It's just a cold.  I can't stop coughing, feel cold and hot, tired.  It is such a waste of time!  Today was a beautiful day, but I felt like hybernating!   I still want to hybernate.  I wish the cough would loosen up...my chest hurts already.  That's all that's new.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Strange Dreams and Other Stuff

Last night I had a "full length" dream.  It had a beginning, a middle and a conclusion!  Strange little details:  I was shopping for awesome shoes, got drunk (I don't drink), started smoking for the weekend....  Anyway, I digress.  We were away for the weekend and I was not with Jim.  We were taking a separation.  I was at this weekend type of party and could choose between an old boyfriend (why him?) who made it clear that it might not work out, another guy who was interested, and then Rob Lowe who I got to make out with!....I think he just wanted to get into my pants....LOL.  The long and short of it is that I wanted my Jim.  He might be boring, but I love him.  I didn't want to make out with Rob Lowe or anyone else.  I just wanted Jim.  Weird, huh?

Been having writer's block, so whenever you see jokes, that's what's going on.

I shouldn't eat.  I can't lose weight.  I don't like the healthy foods.  I don't like to exercise!  Maybe I will start walking again or have hubby get my bike down?  I am debating if I should get rid of all size medium clothing.  Will I ever be smaller again?  I have no more storage space.  I should just have clothing in my closet that I actually wear and that fits.

I am still tired all the time.  Probably cause I am overweight, don't exercise and don't like fruits and vegetables (they don't like me...roughage).

Looks like the sun is trying to shine again today!

Friday, May 20, 2011


A Blonde goes over to her friend's house wearing a TGIF tee-shirt.
"Why are you wearing a Thank God It's Friday tee-shirt on Sunday?"

"Oh crap!" the blonde says. "I didn't realize it was a religious T-shirt. I thought it meant Tits Go In Front."

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Sometimes when you cry....


when you cry....

no one sees your tears.


when you are in pain.

no one sees your hurt.


when you are worried..

no one sees your stress


when you are happy..

no one sees your smile ..







But FART !! just ONE time..

And everybody knows!!

Gotcha!! You thought this was going to be one of those heart-touching stories!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Boring is not so Bad

The sun is shining, but it is only 39°F at 7am.  We had frost during the night.  I want Spring!!!  The good news is that hubby mowed the lawn which is a sign of Spring.  When will it get warmer?  I have my hyacinth to plant!  I want to ride my bike, go for walks and rummage sales!  But, brrrrrrrr.  If it gets to 60° I will be thankful.

I vacummed our living room.  Big deal, huh?  For me it is.  After that bit of cleaning, I am fatigued.  My muscles were hurting from all the spasms and cramps I have been having.  I am going for a massage at 4:30, the only time I could get in, but I have to get rid of these knots in my muscles.  I called my doctor about my muscle spasms, and she suggested stopping my cholesterol med.  Hope I don't get a heart attack!

I have a boring life.  Maybe that is good.  My neighbors are quiet.  Nothing new happening at work.  Hubby and son are loving and supportive. 

What do you write about when there is nothing new? 

Monday, May 16, 2011

Questions of the Week


1. Crunchy or smooth peanut butter?
I am not much of a peanut butter eater, but I prefer crunchy.

2. What is your favorite color Rose?
I'll choose peach with an orange-ish edge

3. Do you remove your shoes when you walk into your home?
Sometimes, if they are wet and I don't have to go to the bathroom too bad.

4. What is your favorite season?
Definitely Summer!  Go for walks, wear sandals and capris,  go to the beach, flea markets and garage sales, cook outs....just some of my favorite things.

5. Approximately how many hours a day do you spend blogging?
Maybe an hour or so.

Still Ailing

Saturday evening hubby, son, sister, mom and myself went out to eat at the local dinner club.  My gift to my mom for Mother's day was lobster dinner.  Hubby bought me lobster too.  He's a keeper! 

I was plagued by severe muscle spasms and cramps Saturday night and Sunday morning.  I had about eight or nine episodes, very unusual for me.  I know I wasn't dehydrated or low on potassium, but wonder if my cholesterol med is the culprit.  I had been getting an occasional muscle cramp but never all the spasms and in that quantity.  If it continues, I'll see the doctor.  I am not in a hurry as I see enough doctors for various ailments.

Then yesterday I got a migraine.  I was just useless.  I did do a load of laundry and hubby was concerned for me.

Today is the beginning of a new week.  I had  a good night's sleep.  Hubby put my storage cubes together so,  I might work in my craft area.  MIGHT!  I should clean my closet, mop my floor, where to start?

Still waiting for Spring!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

I think I need a new Brain!

Last night we went to an annual event, called "Heartarama" cause it raises money for the National Heart Association.  It is a large group of local people putting on skits, singing, dancing, etc. and some of it is quite good.  They have free popcorn, beer and soda for sale and the ever popular "heart" dogs (hot dogs).  One of our Red Hat friends was in the show and I wish my camera could take good pics in the dark, cause she looked fabulous!

After, or during the show, my stupid ostomy bag leaked.  Oh my!  I couldn't get out to go to the restroom, the show was going on, the tables and chairs are close together and I didn't want to disturb anyone.  So, I hung on....literally, and waited till I got home to clean up and change.  It wasn't noticeable to anyone but me, but it it tiresome to be somewhere and have this happen.  At 11pm I threw my clothes into the wash.  Bedtime for me.

Had nightmares all night.  One episode had me leaving my bff behind, and I was in distress cause I could not stop my car and get back to her.  Another one had me very upset.  I was very casually dressed and all these people were at my house in my basement, (but it wasn't my basement).  Hubby and I were trying to clean it as it was in total chaos.  I broke a overhead light fixture and was crying but someone tried to comfort me, but it wasn't hubby.  Not right.  I went over to hubby and told him and he held me and we both cried.  What the hell does this dream mean?

Apparently I didn't have enough fluids yesterday and last night and got muscle spasms in my leg.  Owwwwwwwie!  My calf still hurts.

Here are some pics from the other day at our Red Hat Event.  I won an Iris.

Party favors that we made.

Yippee, I won!

My sister won this hat...she's not sure how she looks.  I think it's adorable.

Sandy won a hat too!  I think it needs to be made to fit a bit tighter on her wee little head!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

My Interesting Visit

Went to see my shrink yesterday.  I was put in this room with a long comfy couch, so couldn't resist lying down and when my doctor walked in I told her, "It all began in my mother's womb.  She ate a chocolate chip cookie and my endorphins were released and the addiction began."  She had a laugh over that one.  I always was the class clown!

The good news?  I am borderline hypothyroid. This could be why I am so tired all the time and gaining weight.  Am trying some meds to see if that helps.  If not, I am just going to accept my body as it is and get rid of my smaller clothes.  The bad news?  I heard that the organization I work for is freezing all merit increases, so, even though I deserve a raise, it ain't going to happen!  Nice to hear it at another clinic.

Today is our Red Hat anniversary lunch.  We are taking a road trip.  Hope all goes well, especially tallying up the bills!  They won't give us separate checks.  I have a few games for the girls and goodie baskets.  The place we are eating is decorated with antiques and there are shops attached to it.  Should be fun!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Crash and Burn

What I hate about vacations and holidays:  I read brochures, articles, etc.  I take in all the hype and then I am so let down when it doesn't live up to my expectations.

Yesterday was Mother's Day.  Did anyone wish me a Happy Mother's Day?  Hell no!  Did I get a card!  Not! Good ole hubby didn't get me a card either.  He said he took me to St Louis and that is my present.  I will remember that one.  My son was being an insensitive beast.  Apparently he was tired cause he didn't sleep well due to his sunburn.  He's 25 #@%#&* years old...and it's my responsibility to bring along sunscreen?  So, he was ugly.  Wasn't going to get dressed and go with us to my sister's for dinner.  My Mom is 91 and it is important to us to get all of us kids together.  Well, the little beast finally decided to get dressed but only after we threatened to leave him home and many tears were shed.

Now, when I cry, I cry buckets!  The tears just don't quit.  It is like the floodgates of any sadness I have been harboring have broken down.  I had to go to the drugstore to get my photos of St Louis.  I was noticeably depressed.  I told the girl behind the counter that sometimes it sucks to be Mother.  SHE wished me a Happy Mother's Day and gave me a hug.  Bless her soul.  Her Mom raised her right.  I must have screwed up somewhere along the line.

On the way to my Sis's, number one son apologised.  So, when we got to my family's, they were like, "what's wrong?"  I said, "It wouldn't be a holiday without a fight."

Thank God the rest of the day went well.  My niece told my son and husband to NEVER not get a card or flowers or something for a holiday, and that a woman does NOT mean it when she says she doesn't care.

We had a sumptuous turkey meal and many deserts.  Sat in the living room and told bawdy stories!  We laughed so hard I thought we would pee in our pants.   My Mom said we were all pigs, and my sister said I remember when you and Daddy would talk piggy too!....LOL  Mom still had to laugh and it was peculiar that her hearing suddenly improved.

So, today I can catch up on my gazillion loads of wash.  I have to get together with bff and see what wonderful things she learned this weekend and the stamping outing.  I missed it this year.  Oh well, there is always next year!

P.S.  Last night my son made me a Mother's Day card!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Fond Memories of St Louis

I love St Louis!  The old architecture enthrals me!  The parks are beautiful.  There is so much to do.  I want to go back!  I want to go to the Museum of History, Grants Farm, the brewery tour, oh, I"m sure there is more!  I would love to see the 1904 World's Fair Pavilion (it was under renovation).

What I liked least about my trip:  Going to the zoo.  Unless you have small children, pay the $12 to park closer to the zoo, and haven't been to a zoo before, don't bother...even if the weather is nice.  Go to the Botanical Gardens instead.  (I was out voted by hubby and son).  Out voted by hubby to see the museum of art.  Maybe I just don't have enough art appreciation in me, or my feet were too sore, but it wasn't my cup of tea.

Was sad to see that many shops in Union Station were closed or empty.  Wish I would have bought the purple purse with the Betty Boop logo on it.

What I liked most about my trip:  The ARCH!  Son and I went up the arch and looked at the city below.  It was wondrous and now I can cross that off of my bucket list.  There is a museum and gift shop below ground of the arch.  Hubby missed the whole thing cause he didn't want to go up.  Too bad he didn't come in with us and wait underground.

We went on a steamboat ride on the mighty Mississippi!  I enjoyed it although I got tired from sitting in the sun.  Son, Dan got a horrific sunburn.  Hey, why do I have to be the one to think of sunblock?  I don't burn.  They day was beautiful...we even ate outdoors!

What we shouldn't have done:  Gone to the casinos.  Although I enjoy it, it is a huge waste of money.  It is a losing proposition and one day that will sink into my thick skull. 

Jim and Dan in front of the majestic doorway.

The inside of the building had it's original marble staircase and just an air of elegance
from an era long gone by.

Union Station with it's clock tower.

View from the 6th story window of our hotel.

St Louis statue

Museum of Art

View from the top of the Arch

A "tram" on display....how you get to the top.

A statue of either Louis or Clarke....the river rose above him, and all that's left is his arm and the top of his poor little head.

Who could resist taking this picture?  My hubby said I cannot get eyelashes for my car!
 I loved the hotel.  The room was nice, there was a full breakfast in the morning.  Complimentary drinks and snack between 3-5 pm, and a good restaurant on the premises.  The pool was in the far corner of the hotel and we chose not to traipse through in our bathing attire to sit in the hot tub.  Most evenings I was just too plain pooped!

With that, I wish you all a Happy Mother's Day.  We are going by my sister's and the whole family is having dinner there.  I got excused from having to bring anything....yahoo!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Beginning of our Trip

I will try to type on my son's laptop....so far, so good.  Tuesday night we stopped about halfway so we could go to our favorite pizza place, Aldo's in Rochelle, Illinois.  It has by far the best pizza and lasagna we have ever had.

Wednesday we drove to St Louis.  I slept most of the way as I was still on vallium.  St Louis is huge!  I love the old historic buildings mixed in with the new.  Union Station was once one of THE major train stations in the US.  It is a gorgeous building, like something out of The Titanic.  There are alot of shops in there and places to eat.  Unfortunately, because of the econonomy, many of the shops are closed.

We went to Harrah's Casino last night.  Big mistake.  Son and I lost our hineys there.  Although it was interesting seeing a big casino like that, it wasn't any kinder to us.  Coming back our Garmin (navigation device) took us through a very dicey neighborhood....I think I saw crack houses!  Wish the Garmin could determine bad neighborhoods and road construction.

I have to check the weather today.  What will it be like?  Think we will go to Forest Park, once home of The World's Fair.  There are many  museums and such to see, even in the rain.  We can catch the trolly and get around the park like that.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

On the Road to Recovery and Vacation!

A day on antibiotics makes a difference.  Yesterday I was able to run my many errands.  I felt a bit dopey and slept a few times in the afternoon, but I got all the laundry done and everything that needed to be done before going on vacation.  At night it still hurts a bit, so I sleep with the heating pad near my bladder.

I started my Mother's Day card last weekend before getting ill and finished it now

Last night I was in the mood to craft so I started a few cards (they still need embellishments) and finished these two mini cards.

As you can see, I am on the road to recovery.  We are leaving for vacation today.  I will take all my drugs along, my heating pad, my insurance cards (just in case).  I am so excited and looking forward to this trip.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

I hurt

It hurts to sit, but I have been lying down most of the day.  I was in the ER this morning with Interstitial Cystitis...my first flare up in six years.  Not fun, but want to nip this in the bud.  I want to go to St Louis on vacation.  Dr gave me all the cystitis type meds, antibiotics, etc.  Couldn't do a urinalysis as there was too much blood.  I am sure the culture will come bact negative.  It almost always does.  Wish the ER could have given me my first dose of meds, as by the time a pharmacy opened and we got things squared away with our insurance, it was almost 3 hours later.

I rested most of the day.  The laundry will have to wait.  I will not get my stuff priced for the big stamp sale.  At this point, I don't care.  I have many errands to run tomorrow.  Will I be up to it, or will we have to cancel our hotel reservations and trip?

Have to crawl back in bed.