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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

The Dilemma

The picture doesn't do the pewter color justice, how it reflects other colors or the zipper embellishements!
Decisions, decisions, decisions.  I have a dilemma.  I have tons of bills to be paid (as always).  I worked soooo many hours the last two weeks and am sure to have a good paycheck.  Part of me wants to reward myself.  What to do?  On the one hand, I want a high end pair of sandals ($96 at Zappos on sale) for my trip to Washington DC.  Will they be worth it?  They are the coolest I have seen and are comfortable to stand in, but how will they be after a day of walking?  If only I could borrow them for a week. 

My other choice is a new camera.  Now, there is nothing wrong with my camera.  It works.  It is just bulky and weighs alot and I've wanted a slimmer camera as much as I've wanted a slimmer body.

Third choice.  Put the extra money toward bills. Yuck!  What would YOU do?

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day at the Fair

Yesterday my sister and I went to the County Fair to man the Comfort Station (where parents can change their baby's diaper).  Sitting outside we chatted and played "what if we were looking for a man?"  I told my hubby he can't be replaced because there are no single men out there my age.  There were fat ones, old ones, young ones, and the ones who were decent looking were with wives!  It was fun to look though.  A man doesn't need to be in perfect physical condition...Lord knows we are not, but you would think they could be well groomed and such.  Anyway, it was a way to pass the time.

Next, we looked at the animals.  For us city slickers, all cows look alike, horses are big, especially the Belgian horses.  The miniature horse was cute.  We learned something new about sheep that they were not originally white with black faces as most are, but were brown and looked more like a little deer.  Interesting!  That 4-H boy knew his sheep!  He was so young, but he had the cutest smile....what a little flirt! 

I also learned I don't want to look at an animal who is off to be butchered!  Yikes!  My bacon and ham shall remain faceless and nameless!

We looked at rides to see which sick machines were the ones my sister's grandsons were crazy about.  We looked at the new treats being offered:  the deep fried Twinkie, the deep fried candy bar (intriguing...wonder how many calories in that!), chocolate covered cheese cake on a stick....yum!  We resisted all and settled for a single scoop ice cream cone.

The sun was out and I was exhausted when I got home from all the fresh air.  It was well worth it!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

I Survived!

Somehow I survived.  This week was the busiest I have experienced in a long time!  Monday I got my teeth cleaned and did pretty much nothing...good thing.  It was my only day to relax.  Tuesday and Wednesday I worked in Peds.  That was fun but is a different type of work.  Wednesday night after work I had a patient advisory committee meeting at the hospital with a good meal. (Chicken marinara and salad). Thursday and Friday I worked in Internal Medicine.  Thursday night I went to my bff's Stampin-Up party.  We made three cards and I was exhausted.  (The third card I saved for parts as I don't need a wedding card.)  Did manage to mow down some of the snacks she provided! 

Last night I got home and we had our church pictures taken later.  Did I look like a tired old hag?  No, but I did look old and overweight!  Ugggh!  Where did that lady come from?  I will scan the picture when I get it.
Monday this fat old lady is going back to Jazzercise Lite.  I figure that is a good place to start.  Maybe I won't feel like such a slug if I start exercising and I'm going to put my church picture somewhere to motivate me!

Friday, August 19, 2011

The Consolation Prize

The good news:  I will be working more in Pediatrics.  The bad news:  The physicians requested our float NOT work there anymore....which leaves me to cover.  I will be working more hours this month as someone is off on medical leave, which means we all move around to different departments.  The money will be good but I will be exhausted.  Next week I have something every day and some evenings.  I hope I survive!

I will not have any extra hours so still no insurance benefits, but will be working half time in Peds.  I like this.  It's a step.  I enjoy the change.  The other day I made a crying baby stop crying and smile....that felt so good!  It is a challenge to work in a different department.  Everything is different but I'll learn.

Have a blessed day!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Saturday at Shanty Days

It was overcast and rain was possible, but bff and I ventured up north to Algoma Shanty Days anyway.  Algoma Shanty Days is a three day event which draws many people from Northeast Wisconsin.  It includes music, food, and carnival rides (if you choose to pay to get into that).  Downtown is home to many craft booths and on Saturday, a parade.  I think I saw every fire truck from the area!  The kids loved it and there were some cute floats.

Algoma Red Hatters are Picture Perfect!

The Old Time Fire Truck

Steam Engine complete with stinky smoke stack!

Kewaunee Chamber Maids

Driving home we had to take this picture of the sunflower fields.

Sometimes weeds are pretty.

These are the treasures I came home with....some glass pendants which were very inexpensive!

A fish, a whimsical elephant, and just somethiing artsy.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The Dress!

Okay, so I'm not runway material, but as you can see, I love my polka dotted dress! Did you know polka dots are one of the "in style" trends this year?   It did look better in the picture than on this chubby body.  I even wore a body shaper but it kept crawing up around my waist which didn't help matters!  Oh well!  I felt pretty anyway.  This is as good as it gets and my son would only take one picture.  I had just come home from a wedding of one of my coworkers.  She was a beautiful bride.  The reception was lovely and the dinner was very good.  My feet hurt!

Today we are off to a craft event.  It is called Shanty Days and is about an hour from here.  Will go to that fabulous coffee shop again for lunch, look at all the craft venues.  Should be a fun day.  Hope the rain holds off!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Choose Joy over Pain

Saturday was a glorious day for a birthday party for my great niece.  She turned three.  She is such a delight, and so polite.  She offered her help in and out of the house over the step to everyone.
Make a Wish!

I splashed Grandpa!
Sunday was a beautiful day with my husband.  He didn't golf.  He took me for a Sunday drive.  We went north and found this lovely coffee shop/restaurant.  Had a great meal, and as always, we each ordered something different and then shared.

Yesterday was a bad day.  I went into work in the morning only to find out I was supposed to work the afternoon!  So I went back home crying.  You see, the reason they need me is because Kay would be over her hours.  So, I am good enough for that, but not good enough to get the job in peds.  I felt very upset...used.  After talking with my sister and a friend, I realized this is common when one is 59.  The opportunities are no longer there.  Kay is sweet, but it is difficult to be one who wants to help her to learn how to do things.    It is difficult to find out I am the only one who has been making follow up calls since the full-time girl left.  It is difficult to be good enough to work when needed so someone doesn't go over their hours or needs a day off.  Good enough doesn't cut it, but there is nothing I can do.

I am not in a position to tell them to shove it.  I cannot talk to my supervisor about it, because if I am unhappy, then patients will sense that and yada, yada, yada.  I hope I could find a job to supplement this one,  a  job that would make me feel good and appreciated.

I am happy for friends and family that lift me up when I am down and for the joy they bring me.

Friday, August 5, 2011

...and now an Intermission

I had the Red Hat picnic on Tuesday night.  It was uneventful for me.  I had made the centerpieces and a few of us decorated the gym (it rained...our first rain out in 6 years).  The food was good.  We played some games.  It was okay.

Wednesday through today I work.  Nothing new there!

Tomorrow is my great niece's third birthday.  I will be sure to take pictures.  I feel very close to her mom (my niece) as she feels a connection to our family because of her mom.  Her mom (my sister) died when she was 32.  My niece was 7 then.  Anyway, that's as clear as mud.  I will be sure to take pictures!

I am considering discontinuing the blog.  I am not a writer.  I don't even have anything interesting to say.  Maybe I just need a break.  I am not looking for compliments or anything.  I just don't know what and how to write.  Maybe I will write about my son, or growing up.  Who knows?

Monday, August 1, 2011

When is Grieving Over?

Yesterday my sister came home from church and phoned me.  She was incoherent; she was crying so hard.  The house was empty and everything makes her miss her husband who passed away a little over a year ago.  When is the grief supposed to be over?  A friend thinks she should not be having these days anymore.  I think it depends on the relationship one had with the departed.

Connie and Dale were high school sweethearts.  They were married 45 years.  He was her best friend, her lover and sweetheart.  Connie is retired.  Her grandson who lived with her has gone into the service.  Her son is in another city, her daughter is in her own world.

Hubby and I went to get her and brought her over to our house.  By then, she had calmed down as another one of her grandsons had tried to console her.  (Her house is open all the time to her grandsons.)  My sister spent the day with me.

We discussed that maybe she needs a plan.  Maybe she should have her son and daughter meet with her and get the house cleaned in the event that she would want to sell it.  Maybe for a short term goal she could do something with the living room.  Sell the oriental furninture and things...redecorate!  Are these just bandaids or do you think it is time for professional counseling?  I love my sister and hate to see her in so much pain.