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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Trying to Gain Confidence

I am trying to get over feeling old and stupid.  It is difficult starting a new job.  Maybe I think being "old" is why I feel stupid.....like "you can't teach and old dog new tricks."  Most of my coworkers are about the same age that I am, so that can't be my excuse.

I am too hard on myself.  That is what my supervisor and coworkers say.  I expect perfection.  I hate to make mistakes, but I have only been at my job one month.  So, I will tell myself that I am doing an awesome job, and that I will learn this.

1 comment:

Debbi@SheAccessorizesWell said...

I have been in your situation. Just try to be patient. I is hard to learn any new job or even new parts of an old job. When you first start, it seems insurmountable, but then it just becomes routine. You will learn it. I remember when we changed to a new software and I felt like an idiot. But, I kept trying, taking notes, and repeated things over and over until it did become routine. Taking notes was the best thing I ever did to help me learn new things.