Christmas is over? My tree is still up and will be for some time. Love to sit a bit in the dark with just the tree lights on. I am still returning gifts. Well, actually, returned and exchanged yesterday, and now have to exchange again. So, hubby said, "and you expect me to find you anything?" He has a point. I miss the days when I could just grab a sweater in the store and it would fit! Now everything has to be tried on. Am I a large or an extra large? I know I'm petite, but good luck finding petite extra large!
I am back at work. Had a straight forward talk with my supervisor before the holiday. She assured me that she is trying to help me and work with me. I will do my best and I am okay with whatever the outcome may be. It is all in God's hands now.
Many of you have blogged about having a "word" for the New Year. Mine would be peace. I am choosing PEACE! Personal, emotional, peace! I will be selfish and do whatever is best for me. If that means going for a massage or a manicure, or going on a trip by myself, in my heart and mind.
So with that thought, Peace be with you!
- I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
A few of you have told me that I am under too much stress with my job. Probably, but I have to deal with it. I don't have any big breaks coming in the next two months. I only work 24 hours a week, but most of my weeks consist of two half days and two full days. I would love a break, maybe a massage?
I finally took some close up pictures with my old camera. The pictures don't turn out blurry.
Okay, the second pic is a bit blurry. I made the beaded ornaments when were newlyweds.
I made this paper rosette for the ornament exchange I took part in.
Think I will do some wrapping today. My mother bawled out my sister for not having her tree up yet! I think that's funny. She even said she might need an antidepressant!
Sunday, December 16, 2012
I had a horrible work evaluation. How does one react when they don't trust their fellow coworkers anymore. I sulked a bit....well, more than a bit. But now I am over it and am focusing on what
I need to improve upon. I am putting it all in the Lord's hands. I can try my best, but if it is not enough, then let the cards fall where they may.
My heart goes out to those in the Connecticut massacre. This has become an evil world we live in.
My bff is feeling stressed about having Christmas at her house. I wish I could help my bff, but with my work schedule, visiting Mom, and the other things I need to do, I wouldn't know where to begin. I know my friend. Somehow it all falls into place and everything will be lovely.
My sister feels all alone (she is). My sister and I are baking cookies today, after I go visit Mom.
I need to wrap presents yet, clean the house, although we aren't having anyone over, I like a clean house for the holidays.
How are YOU doing?
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
I always say, Christmas will come, ready or not. I have not been in the Christmas Spirit, but I'm trying.
Sunday, I went to church after missing several Sundays. Hubby put the tree up and put the lights on. It sat that way a few days, and today I finally put the ornaments on. I included those from trips and mostly hand made ornaments from friends and beaded ornaments that I had made when we were newlyweds.
I tried to take a picture of my Christmas cards, but lately I shake and cannot get a picture. I did get this one. I also got a picture of my tree.
I'm considering reading Dicken's "A Christmas Carol" again. Maybe I'll watch the black and white 1951 movie....a classic favorite of mine.
I have plans to bake cookies with my sister this weekend. I still have Mom's old cookie-cutters.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
I trided to take a closeup picture of my ornament, but I shake too much when holding the camera. Let's blame it on the camera and not old age.
Tuesday night was our Red Hat Christmas Party. It was in a small room, and I felt closed in and it was LOUD with nearly 20 women all talking at once! I can't help it but it makes me feel anxious. We had a white elephant exchange. Many of the gifts looked like they had just been bought. Just a few goofy ones.
Do you specially buy a white elephant? Do you give something nice? I think we should discontinue the practice as it is quite unfair, but that's me. We exchanged our wishes for the year and it became quite evident that the holiday is a sad one for many. Illness, children not home to share with their mother, lonliness....quite sad and makes one appreciate what they do have.
Wednesday I had my evaluation at work. It went horribly. I am afraid by changing jobs I have gone out of the frying pan and into the fire! I was told I am not friendly enough. I have never, EVER, been told that and it was quite hurtful. I am proficient, business like, professional, but not friendly enough! Most evals take place once a year. I have another in three months. I have decided not to be afraid. I will do my best to be friendlier and if that isn't good enough, they can let me go!
We are supposed to get a snow storm this Sunday evening. I haven't decorated the porch yet. I am joining the many who are not in the Christmas spirit. I push myself to do a little each day.
I liked this tree that I saw on my trip at the Desetrahn Plantation.
Monday, December 3, 2012
Made these rosettes for my Christmas ornament exchange. I just arranged them like this for the picture. Sorry it didn't turn out so well.
Going to run errands today and hopefully take Mom our for lunch! She got her hair cut, SHORT! I will have to take a pic. It is cute.