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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Friday, March 22, 2013

My Job

When I went on my interview, I had tons of confidence.  I figured if others could do it, so could I.

Another conference.  Another list of failures at my job.  I don't measure up.  I'm not getting it.
I'm not friendly enough.  I make too many mistakes that I shouldn't be making by now.
Whether it's right or wrong, I am heartbroken.  I can't afford to quit.  Maybe, just maybe, they would let me go, but then they would have to pay unemployment insurance.

It is affecting my health.  My head itches, I flush, I get headaches and stomach aches.

In two months or so I have another evaluation and I can get put down again.


Linda said...

That really sucks! Stress certainly does affect a person's health. Wish I had the formula to please them with, but I don't. Good Luck! or God Bless!

NanaDiana said...

I am so sorry this has been such a bad job for you. Maybe you should just start looking for something else that you would love to do? I hope it gets better. xo Diana

Ofelia said...

I"m so sorry to hear about your job troubles.I had a job back in 2006-2007 that I hate it, that gave me headaches and that make me so stress that my hormones levels went crazy!
The summer of 2007, I gave it up and struggle for a while but I'm so glad that I left because I prefer to struggle than to be physically ill over a job.