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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Thursday, January 31, 2013


Sorry I've been missing in action.  I just didn't have anything too exciting to write about.

I signed up with Mary Kay.
Here I am with my friend, Shelly who did a facial on me, and the director, Trish.  All I can think is how short and fat I am!...LOL
It was a fun meeting and I learned allot as Shelly and I observed the other directors doing  facials on their invited clients.  We then had salad and bread sticks for lunch.  We had a nice ride home, and I got to know Shelly a little bit more.

Now the dilemma!  I am regretting my decision to sign up with Mary Kay.  I cannot afford the inventory and do not want to charge it or take out a loan.  I want to pay off the debt I have.  I don't know when I'll have time to do a facial, let alone have a party!  So, I guess I'll use the products and try and sell what I have in stock with my kit.

Work has been going better since I wrote my supervisor a letter saying that I am prone to depression and cannot help crying when I am reprimanded.  (that is just the way I am).  I said I then get more nervous and make even more mistakes and worried about when the other shoe will fall.

Nothing else new...just enjoy visiting your blogs.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


What came first....the chicken or the egg?

That is my story.  What came first....depression or my job?

Yesterday was a horrible day.  It started a little after 8am with a goof up by me and two others, but I took the brunt of it.  Then at noon I was reprimanded by my inability to schedule a certain type of appointment.  In my defense, I don't have the opportunity to schedule those appointments too often.
But the tears began to fall.  I don't handle criticism well.  I feel like a major disappointment to myself, to my supervisor, etc.  At the end of the day, the cash drawer didn't balance, and of course, that had to be me!   Oh how I wish I could just quit my job, but I have bills, and I'm no quitter.
Still, I wish they would just let me go.  Then I could collect unemployment.

I am not depressed enough to qualify as disabled.  I am just depressed enough to be a detriment to wherever I work.  No one likes a depressed person or someone who cries.  It doesn't look good.  It makes people uncomfortable.  You see, there is still a stigma.  It is okay to be depressed as long as you keep it to yourself.

Today I am having lunch with a friend and we are visiting another who had surgery.  Tomorrow, my supervisor has off, so I have a two day break!

Things have to get better.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Change of Heart

Okay, so I waffle.....or change my mind and heart.

I decided to sign up with Mary Kay Cosmetics.  Why?  I signed up cause I love skin care and makeup
and now have the opportunity to do what I love and that is give facials and skin care advice.

I can take it slow and don't want to push my friends into anything they don't want.

I am in it for the meetings and the products and the "feel good" at something.

So, if you would like to check out my website:

Saturday, January 19, 2013



I don't sleep throughout the night.  Because of medical conditions, I get up several times during the night, so never have a full night's sleep.  I am tired....all the time.  On days that I work I barely make it past 7:30pm.  Whenever I have a day off, I relish a nap.  I need that.


Work was good yesterday.  I am moving on.  I am working on all the things that were marks against me in my evaluation (whether I agree or disagree).  If I need to be friendlier, I am even more friendly!

Other Thoughts

I was thinking of signing up with Mary Kay Cosmetics, but I have to be realistic.  My Mom has to come before that.  Who has spare time (especially when I am tired all the time)?  My house is a mess, but someday I will have plenty of time.  In the meanwhile, I do my laundry and clean what HAS to be done, and my son and husband help if need be.


I haven't had much to write about, but I continue to check yours out dear readers.

Monday, January 7, 2013

This week

I tried to use "snow" as a background to my blog page, but that was just too depressing and cold!  Got enough of that here in Wisconsin.

I had to change to Google Chrome to change my template.  Arghhh!

I joined Weight watchers Online.  I lost 1.8 pounds last week.  I thought it was more, but it must have been a glitch in my scale.  I have to cut down on the cookies!

My mother decided that Christmas is over and wants her stuff removed from her room, so that's on the agenda today.  My stuff is still all up, but I suspect it will come down this week.

I bought my tickets for Florida!  I am so excited.  I don't care if we don't do anything special.  I just want to relax!  My sister is joining me and we are going the first week in April.  I don't know how she is going to sleep, but that is her problem.  We will be sharing a double sofa bed.  I can sleep anywhere, but she can't.
She will  have to sleep by the pool!

My Christmas mess!

Friday, January 4, 2013

Early Morning Musing

They are starting another new process at work.  It is stressfull.  The new year brings new insurance cards and that all has to be entered.  That is not that easy for me.  Too bad I don't buy a lottery ticket and win, I could retire!

I am planning on a trip to Florida to visit my cousin.  It gives me something to look forward to.  Her spare room is being used for storage, so I have to sleep on the couch, but I don't care.  I just want to get away!  The airfare is not so bad in April and we could celebrate our birthdays!

It is very cold....near zero with the wind chill.  Time to bundle up!

Hubby is taking Dan and me out this Saturday night.  I don't know where we will go....the mall to return some things.  Maybe a good restaurant!

I cannot upload a picture from blooger!  Anyone else have this problem?