I went to the doctor (nurse practitioner...can't get in to see a doctor anymore!) for my shortness of breath.
My oxygen level was good, my lungs sounded clear, so she gave me a prescription for antibiotics. Still I feel like I need to open my airway and breathe! Why is it so stuffy every where? Allergies? Why does my chest feel congested?
Talked to her about my mosquito bites. There is nothing she could suggest other than Benadryl and cortizone cream which I was already doing.
When telling her about my diagnosis of bronchitis in late March, I brought up the subject of my Mom and the tears started to flow. She said although grieving is normal, now is not the time to be going off of my antidepressants. So, I call the psychiatrist's office to ask her. They called back and told me to go back on them and see her in six weeks. Maybe I would benefit from seeing one of their therapists. NO! I don't want to sit there and talk about how I miss my Mom and cry. What is the point.
My husband doesn't think I am depressed. I don't go around the house crying or cry myself to sleep. It is just when I get on the subject of Mom. Everyone reacts differently and I cry buckets watching The Titanic even though I know that Jack dies and the ship goes down! That is just who I am.
I will take the antidepressant for the six weeks but I really question if that is what I need, or if I just need more time to grieve.