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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Midweek Catch Up!

The other day, I felt like I was in such a good place.  I felt so at peace!
Something flipped my switch.  I think it was some comments that were made and the the tone of voice that hurt my feelings. 
It was supposed to be a fun time, but at our Red Hat meeting, I felt a panic attack coming on.  Tears welled up but did not roll down my cheeks.  I just cannot handle large groups and all the noise!  Our Red Hat group started with five people; now we have 17!  I love each of the women individually, but put them all in a group, and it is difficult for me.   I used to be Queen, but resigned as I just felt like it was time and it was adding to my stress.  Well, I am not crazy about how things are being run, but I have no one to blame but myself.
I planned a day trip to an orchard and restaurant.  Only six Red Hatters are going, so I will be sure the rest of them know what a great time they missed!  Isn't that just evil?

Maybe it is just me, but I think I'm getting old...am I?  I went to the Beauty School to get my hair colored (I am thrifty that way).  So many of the girls  are wear leggings and yoga pants.  Women, young and old:  Please wear a tunic length top with these!  Not everyone has the figure, and even if they do, I don't want to see a detailed look at your tush!
My hair didn't turn out like I wanted this time.  There was a different instructor, no notes on my card and they did a different process.  It didn't work, so they had to shampoo and dry my hair again and do the highlights again!  I was there four hours! 
I guess I get what I pay for, but they noted it on my card, and next time, I'll pack a lunch!


Linda said...

Some days, eh? I love the leaves on your blog, absolutely beautiful! :)

Sandy said...

I wish I could get my hair done professionally or at a beauty school.No beauty schools near by.It has been decades since I had my hair done.

Linda said...

Yes, the red hats can get loud and it can seem like a free for all. Just think, in a few short weeks you'll be in sunny Florida and will forget all about us. I would never have the patience for the beauty school, but it's good for them that some people do.

Carolee said...

Sorry if I added to your stress at the meeting. I wish I could go on the trip with you but I had the other one on my calendar way before. I will be anxious to hear about it.

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

It's hard to always feel optimistic when you don't feel well. I hope your weekend is better and you have some fun! Hugs, Diane