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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

My BFF!

My bff, Linda has cancer, and now CHF.  Sometimes it seems like I have been down this road before.
My younger sister had cancer.  I am reminded every time I see Linda in her cap (without makeup too!)  It's not her fault.  It is just the way it is.  It terrifies me.  When my younger sister died and her husband remarried (Linda), we welcomed her into our family.  Kevin was just closer to us in many ways.  We celebrate the holidays together and none of that stopped when he married Linda. 
 
Linda and I became fast friends despite our intentions!    In many ways, she has become like a sister to me.  So....I am terrified of losing her!  I keep telling myself that medicine has improved and it has.
My heart breaks that she is not the same Linda.  She has become weak, tired and frightened. (At least I am frightened).  All the things we do together, trips, retreats, and  thrifting, is put off till next year.
 
This has been a long road for her.  She was diagnosed around the same time that my mom had died.  How's that for timing?   
 
I am staying strong for her, but last Sunday when someone asked me how she was doing, I lost it.  Then, after our church voter's meeting, I told everyone that a few weeks ago, Linda looked good!  She did!  She dolls up like nobody's business!  She acts strong and like everything is okay.  I told them it's not.  I told them to pray at home and please be supportive of her, and I almost started crying again.  Then, I told them that I would appreciate it as well as Linda and her husband. 
 
 I hate to see this strong, independent  woman in such misery.   When someone is sick like this, it affects their friends and family as well.  I am asking you, my blogging friends, to pray for her, so she can get ready to jump the next hurdle, surgery! 
 
(I would post a picture of us together, but the old computer crashed and now I have to reload them all back in!)
 
P.S.  Linda, I know you'll read this, and I am sorry, but I love you!

6 comments:

Linda said...

Thank you for your kind words, I am not who I used to be. I have some hoops to jump through first. I do appreciate your prayers.

NanaDiana said...

I am praying for Linda. I have offered to do another prayer post for her, too. Please let me know if you want me to do that, Linda.

I know how terrified you are, Deb. I am just praying that God heals her and restores her fully to your family.

The CHF is disheartening on top of the cancer treatment. Praying-praying-praying. xo Diana

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

Not ssure what CHF is, but I'll pray as God already knows the outcome of this and Linda's future!
warmly,
deb

Sandy said...

I feel guilty about not being more for my sister, but I have my issues and I hope she understands. I hope she feels well enough so I can finally go see her this wknd.

Linda said...

I will keep Linda in my prayers.

Laurie M said...

I will keep beautiful linda in my prayers as well,