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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Today is a Better Day!

It's a new day.
Yesterday I called my doctor to see about increasing my antidepressant or adding Abilify.
They didn't call back yet.
I decided yesterday when I couldn't stop crying to take a Xanax and lie down and rest.  That helped.
I realized that there is nothing wrong in needing my meds.  I have clinical depression.  Someone with heart disease needs their meds. Someone with diabetes needs their insulin.  I do know I can't go on crying all the time.
So today I am okay.  I will call the doctor's office.  I will write out my Christmas cards.  I will take my son to work.  I will do laundry.  Life will go on.
Last night we went out to eat.  (the way to my heart is through my stomach).  My sister met us at the restaurant.  It is just one of those family restaurants, not a chain or anything.  My sister ordered pork chops.  They looked like they had been cooked two days ago and then put in the microwave!  They were so dry and didn't even resemble anything you could chew!  I ordered Fettuccine Alfredo (pasta is my comfort food).  It tasted like white sauce with no hint of cheese.  I got something else, Connie got the pork chops taken off of her bill.  My son's food was way overdone too, but he eats anything!  Needless to say, we won't be returning any time soon.  We did have a laugh over our awful food!
Tonight I will make a beef roast!



NanaDiana said...

Oh-No! Wherever you went I don't want to ever eat there. lol

Did you ever go to that restaurant out on Highway 10 (?)...where it crosses 57 I think. They have the best breakfasts ever. I can't remember the name of the place. It is kind of like a truck stop though.

Glad you are feeling better. Sometimes it just means pushing past the pain (mental or physical). xo Diana

Sandies' Patch said...

Well, I guess you won't be going back there in a hurry!

Glad you are feeling better, sending hugs your way xxx

Linda said...

I understand depression, believe me, I have struggled with it for many years. In my case, the doctor increased my dose by double (75 mg to 150mg), and this seems to be helping. Sometimes rest helps, but there are times where all we want to do is sleep to escape the depression. I will be praying for you, I am glad you are feeling a bit better.