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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

The Wedding in the Park

I have been contemplating whether to continue my blog, start a new one or quit all together.  It is disheartening  to have such few followers and few comments.  I do work hard at it getting the pictures up, etc.  Well, I WILL TRY AGAIN!
This week started with the wedding of my great nephew.  The rain stopped and they were able to set it up in the park.  It was a nice setting with a river near by.
They met at while working at Taco Bell.  Shortly after, it was discovered she was pregnant.  Maybe it was a good thing as my great nephew was on a path of self destruction with alcohol and driving.  He has made a 180° since becoming a father.

This is their darling boy, Tommy.  He loves his babysitter and she loves him!

I wish I had a better picture of the wedding party.  The groomsmen were impeccable.  The made of honor looked very nice, but the other bridesmaids had so many tattoos and piercings that it really was not attractive!  (too put it nicely)

I made hubby slow dance with me.  He is always goofy and can never enjoy the romance.  Guess I am getting used to it.

It was a very casual wedding with the guys wearing shorts and most of the women wearing sundresses or capris.  It was the first wedding where I was told to bring a dish to pass!  I made my usual crab salad and my nephew's  fiancĂ©e was busy making salads too.  There was too much food, but a good thing that my nephew made a roaster full of sloppy joes and brought buns
Prayers Please!
Although everything turned out well, I question if the marriage will last.  They had not known each other very long and then she got pregnant.  They come from very different upbringings.  She runs the show and he is very passive.  It could work.  I will pray for them.
There are so many in my family that are hurting.  My cousin has been having stress at work and problems with her condo which will cost her a ton of money!
One of my nephews is separated from his wife and having financial problems as well.
The flip side is that my niece found a job (finally!).  Things have been rough around here job wise.  I just have to keep all in my prayers and not stress over them.  Thank God my son is doing all right!

Friday, August 22, 2014

My Week Starts on Friday!

Since I am retired, I feel like my week begins on Friday.
Last Friday we enjoyed the last Fish Boil at the Senior Center.
First, we were entertained by the young people who did a performance from
101 Dalmatians.
Had to be sure we signed up for door prizes (we didn't win) whether we had food allergies, etc.,
Mr. Carp came for a visit

The fish boil is only $3.50 for those over 60.  I usually give more. (boiled whitefish, carrots, onions, baby reds and rye bread...and some rhubarb crisp)!
The week has been uneventful.  I did stop at Goodwill and found two tops that are 50% off.  They were in perfect shape and fit!  I also picked up some doo-dads for my bff. 
I also read the book, The Help.  I had seen the movie, but the book, as usual, was better.  I couldn't put it down, and I am not a big reader.  I had headaches all week from reading!  I was sad when I had finished, as I wanted to know more about the characters.  I get so attached to them.
I have to get ready for my great nephew's wedding this weekend.  I  polished my toes and need to do my fingernails tonight.  I used a new Gel polish from Avon.   It is very glossy looking and looks like a gel polish.  I have to iron my sundress and make a pasta salad.  The wedding is in the park and very casual.
The County Fair is going on, but don't think I will be attending this year.  Besides, last time I was there, it was with my Mom.  I still miss her so.
I am getting into genealogy.  So far, I have traced my mother's father's side to my great grandfather who was born in Prussia and how and where he met his wife.  Everything written about them speaks of their deep love for one another. 
You wouldn't think by looking at this picture, that these are the love birds!  I am wondering if they are holding an anniversary cake?

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Bearing my Soul

The death of Robin Williams has been heavy on my mind.  It broke my heart more than most people realize.  I have struggled with the idea of sharing this or not, but have decided there is no shame.
I have suffered from depression since I was 19 or so.  I was a sensitive child, but never so much as when the doctors at the University Hospital of Madison put me on massive doses of prednisone for Crohn's Disease.  It messes with a person's hormones.  I became somewhat bi-polar, experiencing extreme highs and extreme lows.  That, coupled with being in the hospital for months added to my mental illness.  While young adults were out going to school, partying, or working, I was battling my illness.  People thought I felt sorry for myself.  Perhaps I did.  The doctor suggested that I be admitted to the psyche ward there but I had enough of hospitalization and wanted to be home.
One night when I had an argument with my boyfriend, I decided to take every pill that I possessed.  I shared a room with my sister, and fortunately she heard me slur, "I don't want to die."  She woke up my parents who called 911.
I almost died.  The doctor had to put the defibrillator on me to start my heart. This was the first time I overdosed. Shortly before my mom passed away, she shared with me how, when the nurse said I was going to live, it was the happiest news she heard.  I wish she would have told me that sooner.   I tried it a few more times when depression closed in. 
When a person is depressed, it is like being in a burning building with the flames at your heels.  Should you continue to burn or jump?  Other people are not considered and there are no words or reasoning.  You just want to stop hurting.  It is nobody's fault; it is a mental imbalance akin to that of addiction.  The same part of the brain is affected.
Suicide became my answer to depression.  It wasn't till after my faith had been renewed, that I was able to renounce those feelings in the name of Jesus.  The Lord took the desire to die away from me. 
I still have bouts of depression.  The difference is that now I seek therapy and am on medication for it.  It is a chemical imbalance, and although I am so heartbroken that Robin Williams took his life, I hope that people recognize it as a disease.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Good Weekend Outdoors

I love my great niece, Mackenzie.  Well I love all my nieces and nephews, but Mackenzie is the first little girl since her Momma was born!  So, when I see her, I love her little girlishness.

Her party was on Friday at Bay Beach in Green Bay, WI.  It was so nice to see my nephew with his boys, my bff 's daughter with her children and friends.  It was a beautiful day with just a bit of a breeze so we didn't get too hot or too cold.

I didn't get any pictures of the kids on the rides.  When my sister and I looked for them, they were on the other side of the park, so we never caught up with them.  Gramma (bff) and Auntie Amy got pictures.  There was the giant slide, the bumper cars, Tilt-a-Whirl ...all for a quarter a piece!

There was a yummy sandwich buffet, salads and birthday cupcakes!

Today I went to Algoma's Shanty Days to look at the crafts.  We ate at Cafe T'lazo  and I forgot to take a picture of my food!  There was nothing new and exciting with the crafts this year, nothing that jumped out at me.  There was a lot of jewelry!  It was nice to be outdoors though!

Friday, August 8, 2014

A Week of Woes, but a Great Weekend Ahead!

This has been a week of woes! 
To begin with, I was suffering from emotional issues dealing with my bbf's cancer and how it has brought up all kinds of emotions and memories from my sister's battle with cancer.  I have to remember that there are more advances in treatment now and to go with the flow.
Then, on the recommendation of my dentist, I went to the periodontist.  I have to have extensive work done or I will lose my teeth.  Well, I guess I will do what I have to do and pay the piper (or the periodontist!)  FLOSS, FLOSS, FLOSS!
Started getting back pain on my lower right side and into my hip and down my leg.  One day I could barely move.  I will see the chiropractor for that one!
Today I go to re-establish with a urologist for my Interstitial Cystitis.  It is a condition where the bladder lining has pin point ulcerations, causing urgency and frequent urination, bladder spasms, and pain.  I have been on medication for it for years and that seems to help.  I hope this doctor doesn't change my treatment or want to do a cystoscopy.

On the bright side:

Yesterday I found a girl's 24" bike 3-speed bike with fat tires!  It is just right for my short little legs and body!  It will be good to get a little exercise.
Today  I am going to my great niece's 6th birthday party!

She's a beautiful child, but really active!
This weekend is Shanty Days in Algoma which isn't that big of a drive from here.  Love to browse at the crafts, and just be outdoors!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Lakeshore Weekend for Kids (and Adults)

Yesterday my sister and I went to the lakeshore (Lake Michigan) for a big fundraiser for Children's Hospital of Wisconsin.  First we watched some of the dragon boat races.


We saw the kid's tent with all kinds of activities including face painting.  (I should have taken my Godson).  There was one of those bouncy houses, the water tank and something we had never seen before but looked like a blast!
The kids were inside the bubbles and got to bounce around in the water!
We went to the silent auction but didn't bid on anything as it was all beyond our means.  I did however buy some raffle tickets to win a new bike.  (I consider it a donation to the Children's Miracle Network.)
Here is the car ferry which goes across Lake Michigan to Ludington, Michigan.  I have not been on it since I was a baby.  Some day!
We finished the day by window shopping at all the little specialty shops downtown and decided that the next time we need jewelry or some accessories, we will go downtown and buy something handmade and unique!