My bff, Linda has cancer, and now CHF. Sometimes it seems like I have been down this road before.
My younger sister had cancer. I am reminded every time I see Linda in her cap (without makeup too!) It's not her fault. It is just the way it is. It terrifies me. When my younger sister died and her husband remarried (Linda), we welcomed her into our family. Kevin was just closer to us in many ways. We celebrate the holidays together and none of that stopped when he married Linda.
Linda and I became fast friends despite our intentions! In many ways, she has become like a sister to me. So....I am terrified of losing her! I keep telling myself that medicine has improved and it has.
My heart breaks that she is not the same Linda. She has become weak, tired and frightened. (At least I am frightened). All the things we do together, trips, retreats, and thrifting, is put off till next year.
This has been a long road for her. She was diagnosed around the same time that my mom had died. How's that for timing?
I am staying strong for her, but last Sunday when someone asked me how she was doing, I lost it. Then, after our church voter's meeting, I told everyone that a few weeks ago, Linda looked good! She did! She dolls up like nobody's business! She acts strong and like everything is okay. I told them it's not. I told them to pray at home and please be supportive of her, and I almost started crying again. Then, I told them that I would appreciate it as well as Linda and her husband.
I hate to see this strong, independent woman in such misery. When someone is sick like this, it affects their friends and family as well. I am asking you, my blogging friends, to pray for her, so she can get ready to jump the next hurdle, surgery!
(I would post a picture of us together, but the old computer crashed and now I have to reload them all back in!)
P.S. Linda, I know you'll read this, and I am sorry, but I love you!