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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, December 27, 2014

So, Is Christmas Over?

So, Christmas is over?
It seems like there was such a month of scurrying to get cards done, presents bought and wrapped, and all the hub bub.  Now that is behind us.
Christmas Eve I failed to take many pictures.

Christmas Day in our PJ's

You know you are getting old when you like work pants!


                                                            At my best friend's house!

My niece and her daughter, Godson and his brother and Linda.

Doing what guys do best.
A nice picture of my great niece and myself

My sister's kids!  (they're old!)
Karson is a sweetie and is being taken care of by his Grandma

Missed the sunset!

Also missed seeing my little guy, great great nephew, Tommy!

Life went back to normal yesterday.  I did laundry; Jim golfed.  Wait!  That's not normal for December 26th!  It was 40°!  What's with that?  No white Christmas this year although it is on it's way (so they say).

We plan on going to the Green Bay Botanical Garden of Lights tonight.  I hope I get some good pictures.  I have never seen it before.

Monday, December 22, 2014

WARNING! Religious Content! Merry Christmas!

The older I get, the more important church is in my life!  It just doesn't feel right if I don't go on Sunday morning.  It would be like leaving the house without brushing my teeth!  It fills the hole in my life for another week.  There, I meet with Jesus through the sacrament of Communion and His word.  Oh, certainly, God is in the woods, and by the lake, and you don't have to go to church to feel His presence, but it sure is easier to partake of His gifts to us in his house!
We are very blessed with our minister.  He gives great sermons and leaves us with something to always think about.  After church there is a Bible study.  Sometimes, we get hung up on a subject.
Yesterday we discussed a relationship with God.  It is personally painful to me to be married to a non-believer and my son is part of the group we call, the C&E'ers (Christmas and Easter).  Many young people have left the church.  They figure if they show up once or twice a year, that is good.  The babies are not baptized and the children do not go to Sunday School and learn about Jesus.
Our minister likened it to a love affair or a marriage. If you love someone, you WANT to be with them!  (Not just once or twice a year!)  God wants to be with us, and that is why he sent his son, IMMANUEL:  God with us!
It makes me want to see Him more often.  I have been remiss in attending services for Advent and Lent. Perhaps my heart would be better prepared for his birthday if I had attended Advent services.
I am trying to focus on the true meaning of Christmas and not get hung up on the small stuff.
Have a Blessed Christmas!

Thursday, December 18, 2014

'Twas the Week before Christmas

I got my cards out, and started to receive mine.
I tape them on my cabinets, and. I will clean the tape off later.
These are some of the ornaments that I made.

I was in an ornament exchange.  I had these hanging by my clock, but moved them over the sofa (wherever I have nails) so people could see them better
Just one area of The Salvation Army distribution room.
Yesterday I went to work in the office at The Salvation Army. They asked me to help with the gift distribution instead.  They were swamped!  The day before was busier yet and nine volunteers didn't show up!  I only worked for about four hours.  My legs and feet were killing me from the concrete floors.  I don't know how some of the volunteers that are older than me do it all day!  Next year I will wear different shoes!  Each family gets a blanket and a certain amount of gifts per child.  They also get a bag of groceries for a Christmas Dinner.  There but for the grace of God go I.  Many have lost their jobs or can't find work.  Some have nicer cell phones than I do, but whatever, it is not for me to judge, but only for God.
The video I chose is too large, so you will have to enjoy this one!

My Godson is the guy with the Santa hat and red striped tie.  His brother has a royal blue shirt on and a b/w striped tie.
Merry Christmas!

Saturday, December 13, 2014

New Week, New "Friend" and New Haircolor!

The week had a bumpy start, but I am doing better!
Wednesday I helped out at The Salvation Army. I typed a bunch of Thank You letters (from a template) and addressed all the envelopes.  I told them, "I haven't even addressed my own Christmas cards yet!"  They make me feel very appreciated, which is good for my morale.  The employees are a great bunch of people!  They were talking about when they graduated from high school.  I said I graduated in 1970 and they said, "Oh, we would have thought you graduated in the 90's!"  That kept me going for a couple of days.  Who doesn't want to feel 20 years younger?  I think they were just buttering me up so I keep volunteering!
The next day I started at my Christmas cards!  I will finish those today.
Friday I had an appointment at the beauty school for my hair color.  It takes twice as long, but costs half as much to have it done there.  My appointment was in the afternoon but I was in town in the morning, so I gave them a call to see if I could come then.  I got Dan, a tall, black man.  Initially, in my little small town world, I would have thought the worst of him.  I learned a lot about him.  He was 41, married, had three boys from a previous marriage and his wife had a girl from a previous relationship.  He was going to school because his mom and aunt were both hairdressers and he thought it was a good, honest living.  He delivers pizza on the weekend.  His wife works as a teacher's aide and is also going to school.    We talked about family, Christmas (oh no, I started to cry when I spoke of my mom and he let me take a break), Ferguson, and church and the Bible.  He was just a nice guy and many people would never have guessed it.  He was old school.
There was this older woman who sat across from me and immediately started to crank about getting her hair scrubbed, not massaged, and don't cut it too short, etc.  I told Dan he was getting off easy that day.  When he shampooed my hair, I got the best scalp massage ever!  We both said we will always think of that lady when it comes to a shampoo and had a chuckle.
I have a new hair color.  I am not used to it yet.  "Is that me in the mirror?"  It is only color, and I can do something different next time.  I think my real color is a mousy brown with "natural" highlights.
The neck and hands don't lie.   I am 62.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Today is a Better Day!

It's a new day.
Yesterday I called my doctor to see about increasing my antidepressant or adding Abilify.
They didn't call back yet.
I decided yesterday when I couldn't stop crying to take a Xanax and lie down and rest.  That helped.
I realized that there is nothing wrong in needing my meds.  I have clinical depression.  Someone with heart disease needs their meds. Someone with diabetes needs their insulin.  I do know I can't go on crying all the time.
So today I am okay.  I will call the doctor's office.  I will write out my Christmas cards.  I will take my son to work.  I will do laundry.  Life will go on.
Last night we went out to eat.  (the way to my heart is through my stomach).  My sister met us at the restaurant.  It is just one of those family restaurants, not a chain or anything.  My sister ordered pork chops.  They looked like they had been cooked two days ago and then put in the microwave!  They were so dry and didn't even resemble anything you could chew!  I ordered Fettuccine Alfredo (pasta is my comfort food).  It tasted like white sauce with no hint of cheese.  I got something else, Connie got the pork chops taken off of her bill.  My son's food was way overdone too, but he eats anything!  Needless to say, we won't be returning any time soon.  We did have a laugh over our awful food!
Tonight I will make a beef roast!


Monday, December 8, 2014

Depression at Christmastime

I hate depression!  Few people understand it.  They say, "get over it, things will get better."
You can't explain why you feel so sad, why the tears don't stop.
So many people have it worse than me, but still, I am sad.  I miss my Mom.
My sister misses her husband.  My girlfriend misses her health.
I don't feel like cleaning or writing out cards.  I don't care about decorations.  They remind me of the fact that my Mom won't see them.
I took a Xanax.  I called my doctor's office to advise me if I should increase my antidepressant.    They will call back this afternoon. 
I don't want to go to a grief support group.  I don't want to listen to other's cry.
I just want to get through this season.  I want Spring.
I want prayer.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

It's Beginning to Feel A Lot like Christmas!

I finally got my ornaments out in the mail.  I think most everyone who reads my blog, has received theirs, so here they are!
They might not look like much, but they were a lot of work!  I had to make 12 of them, but made some extras just in case.  They are on my little table that I set up in the living room.  I sit cross legged at it and craft while watching TV.
I will show you the ones I received with I get them all!
Tuesday was our Red Hat party.  We had a short meeting, had dinner and a fun gift exchange where you end up swapping gifts!  I found a cute little elf hat that day at the thrift store so wanted to wear it.
After all, it has red in it..

Think I will wear this when I help distribute the gifts for the Salvation Army!

My bff, Linda, got this picture!  She didn't have a gift for the exchange, but the person who bought it insisted that she have it and gave her gift to a person who couldn't make it.

The decorations were festive
 Wednesday was supposed to be my day to volunteer at the Salvation Army, but I got sick at around 4am.  It was my Interstitial Cystitis.  It didn't get really bad this time, Thank God!   I was able to stop the spasms by taking a valium and resting.    The urologist ordered a urine test for me, but I cannot get in to see him until January 12th!  I hope I don't get any more flare ups before then.
Thursday was my morning at the Senior Center.  There was a Christmas Cookie sale, so of course, I had to support the cause and bought two dozen frosted!  They are hidden away in the coat closet.  The director wanted me to do a commercial on the radio for them, but my voice is still all froggy from my cold.
Yesterday I finished up some Christmas shopping and then went by my sister who was taking care of her great grandson, Tommy!  He had come over in his pj's so she kept them on him for a while.
He is a good natured little boy!  About one and a half, he is at a fun age!  All the toys to choose from, and he still likes the stack rings!
We finished the day with a visitation of a man who was a co-worker of my husband's.  He had a large family and was such a nice guy.  As we were almost out the door, we looked at many of the pictures of his life.   There was a very touching poem in the center of it.  It brought on my tears and I had to leave.  I still miss my mom this time of year.  I can't imagine losing my husband.  As my hubby's uncle (the undertaker)  always said, "life is sad."

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Getting Busy for Christmas!

I have been busy, despite my  cold which (drum roll please...) is no longer bothering me!
I made some Christmas cards.
You can't see my ornaments for my ornament exchange just yet!