I had the best of intentions to write about last weekend's retreat.
I will, but it is not going to be the glorious account I had planned on.
This is my Facebook post:
"Went to Retreat. I enjoyed the Bible studies. It was about trusting God and giving up control. Well I was sick almost all weekend, had several ostomy bag blowouts....ran, out of clothes! Thank God for the counselor who was able to wash all my clothing. Thank God for the friends who loaned me clothes, for the lady who gave up half of her massage time for me, for being with a bunch of women who really didn't care if they saw me walk in the hall in my underwear! Control, trust, I had to trust God...that this would all work out. It was so hard. I felt so discouraged, so depressed, I cried, had a pity party. I came home. The few things I asked my family to do this weekend were not done. The house was worse. Control. Control my temper, my tongue, love my husband as he is. Today I have to call the nurse again. Patience, trust. These are such important truths to apply to my life."
I didn't mention how physically drained I felt (no pun intended) and having a horrible headache from crying. (You would cry too if you soiled yourself big time three times!) I started to feel better on Sunday. I took some pictures before we left.
|Susan is a good friend from Retreat. We became friends the first year we met...2009?|
|Cool, cloudy weather|
|My bff, Linda, popped her head out with me!|
The blessings that occurred were that I was surrounded by loving, caring women. I loved the Bible studies, especially the one I wanted to skip! I went on a wagon ride with my friend, Carolee. I opted out of horseback riding and the pontoon...I didn't want to be too far away from a change of clothing!
I am allergic to the adhesive on my ostomy wafer. The skin was so sore, developed a yeast rash, and nothing would stick to it. It continued to get worse. After seeing an ostomy nurse and trying out various appliances, I think I have one that I am not sensitive to.
Jim got a letter earlier in the week that his pension is going to be cut substantially. That was very discouraging to him after working for over 35+ years! Today he found out that his company has rearranged all the bread routes, and basically, he is getting screwed financially, so will go back to covering vacations and get route average. He was really looking forward to being able to build up his own route and having something to work with.
He is discouraged, so I am trying to stay positive for him.