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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

The Storms of Life

I cried my eyes out yesterday.  (I'm not the only one).  I do not "pretty cry"
like in the movies, no, I "ugly cry" and today my eyes are quite puffy even
though I put an ice pack on them.
 
I got very bad news.  No, it's not me, but my bff.  Her cancer is back, and it's back with a vengeance!
 
My first reaction is selfishly for myself.  How dare cancer try and come between me and my friend?
Life has been quite different since her first bout of cancer, but this is worse.  I lost my younger sister to cancer years ago.  I don't want to go through this again.  I have to be careful that my sorrow and stress doesn't make my Crohns flare up again.
 
I am very pissed!  (sorry, there isn't a stronger word).  My friend had celebrated a year without cancer.  Although she got heart disease from the chemo, she did what she was told.  She took the medicines, ate a low sodium diet, had all the tests, exercised and was embracing a healthy life style.
 
Cancer cells are sneaky.  They lay dormant and then POW!  There is no rhyme or reason.  You don't have to have a family history, you can live a healthy life....it doesn't care.  It doesn't care if you are young or old.  It doesn't care if you have people who love you.  It doesn't care if you have more living to do!
 
I pray.  My friends pray.  Our church prays.   What will be, will be. 
 
It is the old "why do bad things happen to good people?"  There is no real reason.
When sin entered into this world, so did disease, death and destruction.
God promises to be with us through it all.  He is with my friend, with me, with you.
 
"I will never leave you or forsake you."
Hebrews 3:5
 
God promises to be with us throughout the Bible, to comfort us, to care for us,
to walk us through the storms of life.
 


5 comments:

Terra Hangen said...

I can understand why you were crying so hard over the news of your BFF. With so many people praying for her, I too ask that her cancer will be healed. Prayer warriors are an important force in healing. Be well yourself as stress is not good for your health.

Linda said...

I cry in little bits and pieces. I still don't understand, know what to do, I feel like I am in someone else's life. Cancer is evil! Thank you that we do have hope for a better life in Heaven. My grandson J and I talked about that again today. I told him it is the golden thread that connects us. Remind him when I can't.

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

I am so sorry to read this...and will pray, again for healing for your BFF...my BFF went to heaven 4 years ago this Sept...she is always in my heart.
Take care.
warmly,
deb

Sandy said...

I not only am just sick and pissed about this whole situation, I am so worried about Jalen.He will be lost without his grandma.

Carolee said...

Hugs and prayers!