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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Needing to Vent
 
Old insecurities are difficult to get past.  Growing up, I was
too skinny, cross-eyed, "bug eyed," and wore glasses.  My hair
wasn't as pretty as others, my clothes were not as nice. I envied others.
Others whose fathers didn't drink or quit their jobs, others whose mothers didn't have to work.
 
My mom was very reserved with her emotions.  She was used to hiding her feelings
and protecting us.  But, she was also like her mother, in that she didn't display that much affection
or give praise.  Any praise given, was followed with a "but," or someone else did or had something better. 
 
Fast forward to today.  I am super sensitive, always have been.  It hurts, when someone tells me
they don't like something about me, or "why don't I wear .....(fill in the blank),"  I am "too negative,"
I think wrong, and I could go on and on.
 
I can only be the person that God designed me to be, and not who someone else thinks I should be.
 
Please accept me the way that I am.  I don't need your criticism, just your love.
 


3 comments:

Linda said...
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Terra Hangen said...

We do all cherish support and love, and true friends love us the way we are. I understand what you wrote here.

Elizabeth@ Pine Cones and Acorns said...

I love bloggers that speak the truth! Love this post and thank you for sharing because we all have our insecurities.