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I have spent a great deal of my life battling illness. I suffered from Crohn's Disease and eventually had abdominal surgery, thwarting the Crohn's and budding cancer cells. Since my surgery in 1995 I have been relatively free from Crohns', although I had several subsequent surgeries related to my ileostomy..When my disease was in remission, I don't think my husband realized how bad it could get, but he has stood by me. I also have suffered from various autoimmune disorders and am diagnosed with Stage IV Kidney Disease. Fortunately, I am maintaining and do not need dialysis at this point. We adopted our son and later found out he had cerebral palsy, so he became my career. Dan has had two surgeries and tons of therapy and is able to walk because of it. He is a college graduate and is employed as an Information Specialist. We are very proud of his accomplishements. I am now part of the retired generation and still getting used to the idea. I do enjoy crafting, traveling and being with family and friends. I am active in my church and feel that the hardships we endure are there to build our faith. I like to live life in the "now" as we never know how much time is left.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

This & That

I had been having some medical problems of late, but I
managed to resolve it with the help of my medical supply company
and my own brain!  Woo hoo!  We had an appointment to see the Wound and Ostomy nurse at
Froedtert in Milwaukee.  We are now glad that we don't have to make that trip!


A few weeks back I made my husband get some culture with me!  Ha ha!  A friend of mine on Facebook was doing a one man show at our local theater.  He is a distant cousin of my husband's so I thought we should go.  We had seen it before at a family reunion, but this time it was much enhanced with photos, film,  and sound effects.  The name of the program is The Accidental Hero and you can read more about it.  The long and short of it is that his grandfather documented his action in WWII
and freeing the city of Domazlice.  It was very interesting as his grandfather discovered his grandparents came from this very city in


I received my bff Linda's Fitbit from her husband.  I had been wearing it, mostly to monitor my sleep patterns, and if I was getting my steps.  I was always getting my steps, would forget to log my water, and it really didn't change my activity in any way.

Well, one day my wrist was itching, and under the charger part of the Fitbit, I had a blister and a puffy red area about the size of a dime.    I googled it of course.  My friend found this info:   Two months after the recall, the scientists wrote: "It is plausible a person's perspiration can enter into the charging port..." of the Fitbit force.They found that sweat in the charger caused a chemical reaction that produced a toxic compound, saying: "This scenario is supported by one consumer stating their injury occurred after charging... and a skin burn the shape of the charging port in another incident."

My luck.  End of Fitbit for me.  I will clean it up, and give it and all my bands and instruction to one of Linda's granddaughters.  I will warn her first!


I am happy to report that my sister is moving around much better.  She will be discharged
from the rehab using a cane!  She still suffers from sciatica for which I have
been taking her to the chiropractor.  I have been driving around a lot lately running my son and now my sister, but I don't mind as she would do that for me.

Until next time, Blessings!

Saturday, May 20, 2017

This Week's Adventures....or NOT!

Gee, it's Saturday morning already and I said I would blog about something.


The Weather:  We had some beautiful weather last weekend and for a few days after.  It was in the low 60's here, but higher inland.  We went to a memorial service last Saturday for my husband's
old friend's brother (got that?). He had many struggles with alcoholism, but later in life recovered and helped others with this addiction.  The most important thing was that he had found happiness in his life, and also, Jesus Christ.  (Jesus first).  It was nice talking to old friends and the family, and was a very informal memorial held in a park building.  The deceased had died a few months back in Alaska, so this worked out well, to have family and friends remember him in his home state.


I would like to start a Christian book club.  I need to find appropriate fiction before inviting everyone.
Any ideas?


This has been a lazy week for me.  I did not go to exercise AT ALL this week!!!  I mopped my kitchen, I did laundry, but that's about it.  When the weather was nice, I didn't even go for a walk.


My sister is not recovering as quickly as we would like.  Her surgery went well, but the rehab facility is short staffed. She needs help with going to the potty and probably hasn't been "walked" all that often.  Her sciatica was giving her problems and causing more pain that her knee replacement.  The nursing care center lost her new shorts, top and panties.  She sits uncomfortably and painfully waiting too long to be rescued from the pot or wheelchair.  She would probably try and go herself, but they have purposely put the walker across the room, so she doesn't attempt that.  She hasn't had any more than a sponge bath for some time, so today she will finally get her hair washed in the shower!  I wish I could help more.  I brought her more clothes to wear.  I visit when I can.


I have to get my sewing machine out.  I committed to making at least one sack for the school supplies that will go into it this Fall for missions.  I will take a picture of the finished product....if I remember!


Saturday, May 13, 2017

My Journey into Joy

Okay, am going to make a concentrated effort to write a bit every Saturday.
I was trying to see where I am on my journey.


It has been a long, cold, wet, Spring, but finally the grass is green, the temperatures are rising and flowers are beginning to bloom.

My hip is better and I have been trying to be consistent with the Silver Sneakers exercise class at the Senior Center.  I also joined Planet Fitness, as there is one near me when I take my son to work.
I go on the treadmill and sometimes use the machines.  I am starting out slow as I am so out of shape!

My Bible study group finished our study of Timothy with Beth Moore's book, Entrusted.  Although I am not ready to evangelize the world, I learned more about that God expects each of us to share the Gift and the Gospel with those who are open to it.  For me, that means my family.


The first weekend of May I again went to the Sayner Stampede.  I started going to this about 14-15 years ago with Linda.  This year I went with two friends that had accompanied us before.  I spent way too much money, but it was what I was there for.  The word of the year is FOIL!  There was a huge emphasis on heat pressured foil.  Had a rough day, as once again my ostomy bag let loose.  Gwen (pictured) took me to the hotel so I could clean up and change.  We went back and made as many cards as we could.  Then, while Carolee (not pictured) was helping to clean up with the used stamp sale, Gwen and I went to dinner.  I enjoyed a beer for a change!  In the evening, Gwen went back to help with a class and I was fine in the hotel by myself, enjoying my quiet time.


In May we also celebrated our Red Hat group's anniversary.  We have been a chapter for fourteen years!

I made these little party favors.  They hold a Ghiradelli chocolate perfectly!


Another new thing to bring me joy this year has been season tickets to see "Let Me Be Frank Productions.  The plays are cheesy satire, but funny, and the band and singing is awesome!


Yesterday I went on a bus trip with the Silver Sneakers to go shopping.  Again, I spent too much money.  I found a blouse on sale at Penneys, but then, I stopped at the Clinique counter at Younkers.
I decided I needed a new eye cream for my wrinkles around my eyes AND an eyebrow pencil!  I then could get $10 off by spending over $50, and get the little beauty bag with smaller versions of the cleanser, makeup remover, eyeshadow, mascara and lipstick.  What a deal, huh?

We then went to the Olive Garden and I may as well have the Shrimp Scampi!  I had enough for lunch and dinner! 

Onward to Wilmar Chocolates, where I purchased chocolate covered potato chips!


I best behave the rest of the month, or I will be totally broke! 

I am not volunteering at the Senior Center anymore, as I got kind of bored with it.  Instead, I am working the checkout at St Vincent De Paul Thrift Store two Thursday mornings a month.  Some mornings cost me about $3- $4 as I find deals while working.  I love Judi, the gal that I am working with.  We laugh a lot and play country music in the back ground.


My poor sister is in the Rehab at the nursing home recovering from a total knee replacement.  She has rheumatoid arthritis.  Her knee and hip were both really bad, but the knee was worse, so the doctor is starting with that.  Hopefully, a new knee will help her hip and back feel better too!  She is so uncomfortable right now, and the food isn't very good either.  I will have to pick something up for her!  Her name is Connie.  Please keep her in your prayers.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Back again?

Just a short entry.  I am trying to decide if I should blog again.

It does seem therapeutic.

I need to catch up on other's lives as well.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

"It Only Hurts Me When I Cry"

If I ever have bursitis again, or any kind of pain, it will have to be debilitating before I get another Cortisone shot! 
I heard they hurt, but what was worse, is that I found out I have a sensitivity to the cortisone.  I had the shot last Thursday, had a massive headache for two and a half days.  Sometimes it would let up a bit, but then would come back!  I also felt jittery, got flushed, felt famished all the time and couldn't sleep!  Anyway, the pain is gone, I have one more day of physical therapy,
and then I can return to life as usual!  Woo hoo!

My sister and I had tickets to go with the Senior Center to The Island, Chip-Inn Casino to see Dwight Yoakum, a country singer.
That was Friday night (yes, I had a headache and kept taking Tylenol).

On the way up north, we had a delicious chicken dinner.  When we got to the casino, we each got $20 in promo play and $2 coupon towards dinner. 
I won $50 on my first $5 of my promo.  Then went on to play further and kept on winning.  In all, I think I won $150!  IN THE BANK for a trip to visit my cousin in Florida.

On the bus ride home, we watched, A Beautiful Mind.  I had never seen it before.  (I cried).


I have been sharing political memes on Facebook with a vengeance.  I think I have displaced my anger and grief  about my friend's cancer, and took it out at our current administration.  I never
said anything derogatory about anyone specific, but I got lambasted by a church friend who is quite conservative.  It is sad, because I never directed anything towards an individual, but something must have struck a nerve, because she let me have it.  Her words cut me like a knife.

I already could not sleep because of the cortisone, and now I felt so deeply hurt, as she was also a friend of Linda's.

I have never prayed so much!  I asked God what to do.  First, He told me that HE is in control, and I don't have to worry about the government.  He also convicted me that I should be the one to reach
out to the woman who hurt me.  I wrote a very nice letter of apology, and I pray she accepts it.
I asked if we could agree to disagree, and I am no longer posting anything political
on Facebook!  I am going to keep it nice and light, with maybe some Godly inspiration thrown in the mix!


This grief thing is a process, isn't it?  A friend told me the four stages of grief.

1. Denial and isolation

 2. Anger

 3. Bargaining

 4. Depression

 5. Acceptance

I think I have skipped #3 and have been fluctuating between 1, 2, and 4 for some time now.

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Some of This and a Little of That

Today I was at Kevin’s.  Linda’s kids were there going over things.  There is SO MUCH!  I think she was a bit of a hoarder!  Everything was, “you know, you might need this someday.”  She had a nice collection of dolls, but I don’t want anything like that.  I just wanted my little DeMarco statue that said friend, a plant, and some odds and ends.  Kevin gave me her fitbit.  (Didn’t want that going to Goodwill).  I am undecided about things.  Everything is attached to memories, and makes me cry right now.  I might change my mind about some of the clothes, and just put it away for a year.  If I feel differently next year, I can wear it, otherwise will donate it then.  She had tons of purses, everything!  It is so sad.  One sees how much of a lifetime is attached to things.

She had a ton of jewelry, Red Hat stuff, etc.  I told Kev if he wants to get all the Red Hat stuff together, we can put it on my pool table, and I will have the ladies have at it.

Happy to report that Kevin is doing well.  He, too, had been grieving for a long time.  He said the house is so quiet.  I told him, he might have to put HGTV on for background noise!  He is just trying to move on.  Linda had a lifetime in that house, so he has much to go through and give away or whatever.  He is working, playing cards on Wednesday with his golfing buddies, going out for fish on Fridays at the golf course.  Tomorrow he will watch the Packer game with his daughter and her husband at his twin’s house. 


I am going to try and get back at the church's scrapbook.  I also am trying to get back into Bible Journaling.

This is my latest entry.  I was inspired by Jesus' baptism.  John 1:29  "Behold the Lamb of God that takes away the sin of the World."


This is not typical Wisconsin weather.  Two weeks ago, it was below freezing with the wind chill.
Jim could not sell his wildcard tickets, so he and Dan went to the game.  The high was 13°
It was an exciting game, against the Lions, but Jim said never again!

They got to the game early and took this selfie.

Monday, we had an ice storm.    No fun driving my son to work!  He almost fell, and I had to walk him to the door!  (I had offered earlier, but he's so independent!)

This week has been rain, rain and more rain.  The snow is melting.  It is in the 30's and supposed to get to the 40's next week.  I think when Old Man Winter comes back, he'll be back with a vengeance!

Sunday, January 8, 2017


Well, it's a new year!  Where do I start?  I start with the memorial service of my dear friend,  Linda.

It was a beautiful service.  The pastor really touched upon all the points about her faith that Linda wanted to share with her family.  He also shared how creative and how full of fun she was.  Of course, I cried, but it was kind of off and on, as it was with her family.

Last Fall, when I was having a hard time knowing how to "be" with Linda and her cancer, we went to a women's faith retreat. That weekend, I think Linda and I were both trying to come to grips with her cancer in different ways, and for different reasons.  She retreated into herself, and I sought support from others.   I just couldn't be there emotionally for her. 

Linda had become very critical of me, and that is why I kept my distance for a time, but one day I realized it didn't matter.  THIS wasn't Linda.  It was her anger at the cancer, or the chemo, that was making her so snarky towards me, and I would just ignore it.  I will never know if it was me, or the chemo, or the cancer.  I will never know if she was intentionally pushing me away, or if I was trying to withdraw emotionally.  At some point, it didn't matter.   I emailed her and told her that I loved her for 26 years and I was always going to love her.  She told me she loved me too.  (I'm saving that email)  We got together a couple of times, and when it started to look like it was the beginning of the end, we both told each other we were sorry for hurting one another and held each other and cried.  Again, I told her that I loved her and she would always be my best friend. 

So, it's a new year, and I must go on.  Linda told me that I had to go on without her.  She knew me, just as she knew how my body responded to the stress of her cancer.  Both she and her husband didn't want me to get sick again.  I did what I could, but feel it was never enough.


So, I go on.  I am having physical therapy this week for bursitis in my left hip.  I am meeting a new friend and my sister for lunch on Thursday.  I am back to blogging.  I have made a new friend through Linda's blog and cancer support group.  Last Fall at the retreat I became closer to another woman who invited me to go along with her to another retreat in February!  (more about that, in February.)  At the end of the month, my sister and I are getting on the bus to see Dwight Yoakam
at a casino up north.


So, I go on, and I choose joy!

I bought this from someone who has her own Bible Journaling group and stamp shop. Korin Sutherland also has a shop on etsy  When I saw this, I had to have it.  2016 was not the best year for me.

Next week Bible Study starts up again!  I have been trying on my own, but I love to meet with the ladies!


Hope my post wasn't too depressing.  A blessed New Year to all my readers!